Twas A Pear!
Now, I read Dani's blog quite a bit and noticed she doesn't really care much for the public schools due to there lack of--- *trying to think of word* FAITH! Yes, lack of faith. Many readers have been surprised that some of the stuff I am writing about in the matters of God and the bible I learned at school. Pretty cool huh?
In our social studies class we learned a LOT of creation myths including the christian one and another version... it involved our God but it was different. If you ever take the time to look into creation myths, avoid the Chinese one, it's sooooooooooo gross! Honestly, they make the whole world out to be made of--- well, I'll let you find out for your self, but I'm warning ya!
In english or language arts, (different names, same basic class) we studied and anyilized myths aswell as the Garden of Edan story. This brings me to my quite interesting rant on how everyone is being told the wrong thing, it twas a pear, not an apple!
The Garden of Edan was home to the first humans, Adam and Eve. From Adam's rib came Eve, created to be helper to man. The Garden of Edan was also home to the trees: the tree of life, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil (was there one more? i can't remember.) Some creatures also lived in the garden, one of them was the serpant, who some believe to be the first form of Satan aswell as temptation. The tree of knowledge of good and evil was forbidden to Adam and Eve by the words of God. But foolish Eve was tricked by the serpant into believing that the tree would make them as powerful as their Father. Eve convinced Adam to eat from the tree as she did and that is when they saw themselves and naked and evil. The fruit claimed to have brought this knowledge and shame upon them is supposedly an apple. Wrongo. Twas a pear that Adam and Eve ate.
Now you're thinking, Taylor, I was impressed at first with this school but they have taught you wrong! My teacher actually happens to be quite clever and told us the tale. In medievil times (i think) there was a poet who wrote a poem (duh, poet, poem it all makes sense) about Adam and Eve. Unfourtunatly I have the nor the name or title of this poem but if I did I would surely display it. The poem told how the couple ate the apple. People took so well to this idea and the lovely poem that through time the pear of knowledge became the apple of knowledge.
Perhaps the next time I see her I will ask the title of the poem or name of the author but until them I am plainly stumped. Google doesn't help much either.
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Did God Plan for Knowledge?
The tree and the serpant were placed in the garden by God. Of course, who else? He created everything! Now, God I don't believe makes mistakes? Am I right? His son is perfect (who is a form of him) so it would make sense he can't. So God must have known that Adam and Eve were going to do this right? Yes, and my evidence? If God hated how things turned out he would have wiped everyone out on the spot and started over again with beings lacking free will.
Maybe God believed to highly in Adam and Eve and thought it below them to commit this everlasting sin. No, I still stick with my first opinion that it was planned. He plans everything, He plans our life and our death. He commands us and he blesses us. It's all in His hands and we cannot do jack about it, and shouldn't try. Here is a quote from Bruce Almighty: "God is a mean kid on an ant hill with a magnifying glass, he could fix my whole life in one second but he'd rather burn my feelers off and watch me SQUIRM!"- Bruce. Honestly, who thinks that? God is the most loving.... being? Well, he's not being but most loving..LOVER! in the whole entire universe! Those who disagree speak now or forever hold your peace...too late.
God loves all and plans everything. He gives you a choice and always is sending help you're way. For those who do not know or want to be christian, God (i believe) gives them a chance.
One time at camp (many years ago) we were doing bible study or something and I asked: what about people stranded on and island never knowing there was God and they couldn't accept God into their heart because they didn't know he exsisted. What would happen to them? Would they burn in Hell?
The answer was delayed but I am pretty sure she said, God would find a way. But I kept persisting, would they burn in hell if they didn't know who he was and couldn't be saved?
It's a sad subject isn't it? Thinking there may be people out there who don't want to and never will be saved. I am sorry to go a bit off topic from my "did God plan for knowledge" thing but you can see how I sprout of from there. I want to do good for people but nobody likes others opinions pressed on them so if you meet a person like that somewhere in the african jungle what the heck are you gonna do? I would probably think to myself: Well, God wants me here right? Soooo... I should do what I can!
What would you do in a situation such as this? Hm? Please think about it and let me know.
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Possibilites
So far I have gathered several ideas on my future and hopefully more God-involved lifestyle. I, as you have heard me (well, read me) state before, I shall read the bible. First, I shall start with proverbs as prescribed by Dani. I will also begin a prayer journal and see how it goes. Also I picked up the meditation idea from one of Debs comments and I'm thinking that sounds pretty good. It's good for you're body, mind and soul! Luckily I have mornings to my own so this should prove easy. These are the many possibilities so fascinating and interesting and I can't wait to try them and suddenly I've hit a brick wall. Church, please don't anyone reccomend it because I just can't do it! They are stuffy, unfriendly, and opinionated! I don't like them. No, I can do the camps, and I love singing our little prayer songs (i love christian camp so much, really) but I think church is just sooooooooo... annoying! I've been to a couple and they're nice and everything but I think a christian boarding school would be more interesting. You can't go there just to pray without being on schedule and they often smell wierd, the churches I mean (not boarding schools... not that I've been to one.) Churches at one time I imagine to have been grand and full of calmness. Now they just suck. I see movies and old elegant chapals or whatever, so much cooler than now. Maybe I should go to italy or france. Or not... I don't know but the point is don't anyone dare to recomend church, I WON'T DO IT AND YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!!!!!!! *shivers* I don't like them... not one bit. I'm sorry to go on and on but I just sense it'll come up sooner or later and I won't have it.
Well, now that we're passed that I'm going to get to work on my God work-out soon :) I think I need some physical work out too, anyone have a bowflex around? lol.
Much love to all, and sorry about the ranting on about churches, they just drive me up the wall! Hope you'll forgive me,
LOVE
~TAY TAY
p.s. HAVE A HAPPY DAY!
Friday, June 30, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
The Bible, Guide Book or Rule Book???
I believed I talked about this in my last post. I think it makes a pretty good topic too. Now I know I am going to be recieving comments on this as it would seem something my christian comrads would respond to. Now, if you read my last post I stated how I believe that the Bible is a "guide book" and not a rule book. Why do I say this? Because if it were a rule book the human race followed our society's would be perfect. Rules are not supposed to be broken. If it were a rule book humans who broke those rules and didn't repent for every single little one (include eating shell fish) would be sent straight to hell. I don't believe this is occurring. The bible has important lessons and a great many metaphors. It has instructions and tips not HOW THINGS MUST BE DONE! Even Dani said the Bible can be thought of as-
"BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH"
Let's examine some vocab in this little quote. Basic. Now you're not dummies, nor am I but I would none the less like to tell you a synonym/definintion for basic.
Basic: of or relating to the simplest facts or theories of a subject.
Bible of course tells facts. These are facts of history and what happened in the past. They are not absolutely simple but the instruction it gives are which is our next term I wish to address.
Instructions: a statement of what to do that must be obeyed by those concerned.
Now, this makes little sense. In a recipe we have instructions but don't necessarily have to follow them. But on the matter of building? Yes, you should follow those instructions for you're 5 year old's swing set as to be sure it wouldn't break. Two clashing theories, what to do, what to do.
So far we have, Basic Instructions, or simple statements that must be obeyed. So is the bible the recipe type or the building type of instructions? Hm.. well, I see it as a recipe. Am I not permitted to touch a friend or sit on a pals bed during her . ? ( notice i hate the term and prefer the symbol... blech... :( ) I am also not permitted to eat shellfish? No! This is not true. This is just what the people who wrote this believed. Did go honestly say: "Thou shall not feast upon the shellfish or sit upon the bed of a woman having her . " I most certainly doubt it. God creates things to tempt us true but really, shellfish?! Is that because they are (possibly) and afridisciac? (a-fri-dee-she-ac, you get what i'm trying to say right?) Anyway I just find it hard to believe. And what about sundays? Holy day! Humans have totally thrashed it. I don't know where to look in the bible but I'd quote it if I did. I know it speaks of how not to kill or do other sins. I can't remember off the top of my head but you see my point. That is most certainly a rule because God himself said it. There is a different between what the bible says in the bible and what God says in the bible.
Alright, so back to the vocab. "before leaving earth." Well, that's pretty self explanitory. We got it all now. So the bible is a recipe to follow, and learn from to make the most out of you're gift of life before ascending to the heavens. I think I captured it quite well. In the times of the bible, (a looooooooooong time ago) they obviously did not have what our modern societies have today. They did not really have the enormous churches and so much human unison. Yes, I realize much of the world will have nothing to do with one another but there are still a great many christians who gather together. We also live relatively freely. We can go worshipping Jesus and following him without being crucified.
The bible is a recipe, a guide book, not a rule book. Yes, it has rules in it, those rules stated by the holy lord himself. Guide book. From his mouth God never spoke the words that those of different sexuality displayed by Adam and Eve shall be sent into the firey pits of hell. You don't see thunderbolts striking those who have supposedly sinned through their life style of choosing to be affecinate towards the same sex.
In school (yeah, it's suprising for public school) we examined the creation of Adam and Eve and what happened to them. We examined every little aspect of the story. We read how it said (i don't have it right infront of me so forgive me if this isn't word for word) "I shall create God in our image." I remember how we noticed in certain parts God spoke as "I" and God spoke as "us" or in group form. This suggests either: angels, God is neither man nor female yet both, or Jesus was with him. If the 2nd (God being nor man nor female yet both) is correct then what is wrong with loving the same gender? No, you cannot reproduce but some men and women can't due to medical problems. Does that mean they aren't serving God all the same. A child of God who worships God shall be saved from the fire. They must do their best to serve him and love him for they will be treated well in the heavens. We christian "homosexuals" (i really hate that term... I'm going to come up with somethig new one day) are not doing as some and trashing the name of God. We aren't worshiping the serpant and the devil. We aren't standing looking up to the sky screaming: "We aren't falling Adam and Eve and you can't do jack!!!" No, we're loving a human. A companion.
I finish with my strong and unchanged decision, the bible is a guide book, and I do not sin. I love. I am going to continue trying to pick up that bible and see how things go. I will be interested on reading the comments about this post, oh dear, it is quite a long one. A very well written one I believe too.
I LOVE GOD!!!
~Taylor
"BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH"
Let's examine some vocab in this little quote. Basic. Now you're not dummies, nor am I but I would none the less like to tell you a synonym/definintion for basic.
Basic: of or relating to the simplest facts or theories of a subject.
Bible of course tells facts. These are facts of history and what happened in the past. They are not absolutely simple but the instruction it gives are which is our next term I wish to address.
Instructions: a statement of what to do that must be obeyed by those concerned.
Now, this makes little sense. In a recipe we have instructions but don't necessarily have to follow them. But on the matter of building? Yes, you should follow those instructions for you're 5 year old's swing set as to be sure it wouldn't break. Two clashing theories, what to do, what to do.
So far we have, Basic Instructions, or simple statements that must be obeyed. So is the bible the recipe type or the building type of instructions? Hm.. well, I see it as a recipe. Am I not permitted to touch a friend or sit on a pals bed during her . ? ( notice i hate the term and prefer the symbol... blech... :( ) I am also not permitted to eat shellfish? No! This is not true. This is just what the people who wrote this believed. Did go honestly say: "Thou shall not feast upon the shellfish or sit upon the bed of a woman having her . " I most certainly doubt it. God creates things to tempt us true but really, shellfish?! Is that because they are (possibly) and afridisciac? (a-fri-dee-she-ac, you get what i'm trying to say right?) Anyway I just find it hard to believe. And what about sundays? Holy day! Humans have totally thrashed it. I don't know where to look in the bible but I'd quote it if I did. I know it speaks of how not to kill or do other sins. I can't remember off the top of my head but you see my point. That is most certainly a rule because God himself said it. There is a different between what the bible says in the bible and what God says in the bible.
Alright, so back to the vocab. "before leaving earth." Well, that's pretty self explanitory. We got it all now. So the bible is a recipe to follow, and learn from to make the most out of you're gift of life before ascending to the heavens. I think I captured it quite well. In the times of the bible, (a looooooooooong time ago) they obviously did not have what our modern societies have today. They did not really have the enormous churches and so much human unison. Yes, I realize much of the world will have nothing to do with one another but there are still a great many christians who gather together. We also live relatively freely. We can go worshipping Jesus and following him without being crucified.
The bible is a recipe, a guide book, not a rule book. Yes, it has rules in it, those rules stated by the holy lord himself. Guide book. From his mouth God never spoke the words that those of different sexuality displayed by Adam and Eve shall be sent into the firey pits of hell. You don't see thunderbolts striking those who have supposedly sinned through their life style of choosing to be affecinate towards the same sex.
In school (yeah, it's suprising for public school) we examined the creation of Adam and Eve and what happened to them. We examined every little aspect of the story. We read how it said (i don't have it right infront of me so forgive me if this isn't word for word) "I shall create God in our image." I remember how we noticed in certain parts God spoke as "I" and God spoke as "us" or in group form. This suggests either: angels, God is neither man nor female yet both, or Jesus was with him. If the 2nd (God being nor man nor female yet both) is correct then what is wrong with loving the same gender? No, you cannot reproduce but some men and women can't due to medical problems. Does that mean they aren't serving God all the same. A child of God who worships God shall be saved from the fire. They must do their best to serve him and love him for they will be treated well in the heavens. We christian "homosexuals" (i really hate that term... I'm going to come up with somethig new one day) are not doing as some and trashing the name of God. We aren't worshiping the serpant and the devil. We aren't standing looking up to the sky screaming: "We aren't falling Adam and Eve and you can't do jack!!!" No, we're loving a human. A companion.
I finish with my strong and unchanged decision, the bible is a guide book, and I do not sin. I love. I am going to continue trying to pick up that bible and see how things go. I will be interested on reading the comments about this post, oh dear, it is quite a long one. A very well written one I believe too.
I LOVE GOD!!!
~Taylor
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
The Life Grade- percents everywhere!!!
This is part of a comment I posted on Dani's blog:
"With a lot of things in life I relate them to percentages and grades.
For ex-
A~ 90%-10%
B~ 89%-80%
C~ 79%-70%
F- 69% or below
SUPER F- 0% (of course I made that up)"
It's true, totally true, many parts of my life and turn to percents and grades. This is a habit that started when I began junior high. It's like little TINY sections of a test. The test would be life. Of course obvious examples of where I do this percentage thing is games. Other grades I give myself for things like stress and other feelings. Oh!And art work. Lately I've been doing some drawings (I think they are pretty good) that I've been considering bringing on the blog. I'm just worried about how you (readers) will respond and I don't want them stolen. I have a copy right symbol on all of them but it's tiny. Well, I am sure I an figure something out.
ANYWAY, percentages in life is something I enjoy living by. It also helps me improve something as well as humor myself. Sometimes I'll kind of round up numbers a bit but not that much. I am guilty of a couple times doing this in the school year on several tests and rounding up as a matter of fairness or taking out parts that were totally not nice and seeing how I did after that. This didn't matter really to the grade books but it cheered me up a bit. The rounding up thing didn't work very well though when I recieved a devastating grade on a bio test I studied SUPER hard for. Luckily I passed though. Sorry, having bit of a trouble staying on track but it just proves my point on how far out this grade/percentage thing extends.
I wonder what my overall life grade will be? THE WORLD WILL NEVER KNOW!!! Only God.... maybe not even him, being the fact that he doesn't go around grading. Grading and judging are two completely different things I would like to point out.
Now, if you excuse me, I have a meeting with a bubble bath and some rubber ducks. :)
random note: I am listening to the radio kinda and this guy is signing about how he loves Nascar... soooo wierd.
Nice good post, I'd give it a B+. LOL.
SEE YA SOON~
taylor
p.s. Have a happy day!!! oh!!! I'm late for my bubble bath. g2g. bye!
"With a lot of things in life I relate them to percentages and grades.
For ex-
A~ 90%-10%
B~ 89%-80%
C~ 79%-70%
F- 69% or below
SUPER F- 0% (of course I made that up)"
It's true, totally true, many parts of my life and turn to percents and grades. This is a habit that started when I began junior high. It's like little TINY sections of a test. The test would be life. Of course obvious examples of where I do this percentage thing is games. Other grades I give myself for things like stress and other feelings. Oh!And art work. Lately I've been doing some drawings (I think they are pretty good) that I've been considering bringing on the blog. I'm just worried about how you (readers) will respond and I don't want them stolen. I have a copy right symbol on all of them but it's tiny. Well, I am sure I an figure something out.
ANYWAY, percentages in life is something I enjoy living by. It also helps me improve something as well as humor myself. Sometimes I'll kind of round up numbers a bit but not that much. I am guilty of a couple times doing this in the school year on several tests and rounding up as a matter of fairness or taking out parts that were totally not nice and seeing how I did after that. This didn't matter really to the grade books but it cheered me up a bit. The rounding up thing didn't work very well though when I recieved a devastating grade on a bio test I studied SUPER hard for. Luckily I passed though. Sorry, having bit of a trouble staying on track but it just proves my point on how far out this grade/percentage thing extends.
I wonder what my overall life grade will be? THE WORLD WILL NEVER KNOW!!! Only God.... maybe not even him, being the fact that he doesn't go around grading. Grading and judging are two completely different things I would like to point out.
Now, if you excuse me, I have a meeting with a bubble bath and some rubber ducks. :)
random note: I am listening to the radio kinda and this guy is signing about how he loves Nascar... soooo wierd.
Nice good post, I'd give it a B+. LOL.
SEE YA SOON~
taylor
p.s. Have a happy day!!! oh!!! I'm late for my bubble bath. g2g. bye!
THE BLOGGER FILES: TOP SECRET
WOW! Ok, so the blogging is really heating up. Through comments and posts many words are being exchanged. The fires are starting up leading to another important climax to the issues discussed between Dani, Deb, and myself (and others too).
BLOGGERS PROFILES:
name- Dani
age- adult
blog- Generation X-pose
LINK- http://worstgenerationseed.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality goes against the bible and words of God
other- likes eminem
faith- Christian
name- Deb
age- adult
blog- Let Me Go On and On!
LINK- http://dtrant.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality does not go against the bible and words of god
other- recently injured neck
faith-Christian
name- Taylor
age- teen
blog- Soaring Heart
opinon- mostly agree with ~Deb
other- knows that she is bi- and in love with her BFF.
ability to hear god- not very good
faith- Christian
(if i got anything wrong please correct me so i can change you're profile)
The Issue: gay, bi-, lezbian, straight (what is right and what is wrong?)
The Answer: unknown yet
Manager and Administrator: God
THIS CONCLUDES THE BLOGGER FILES
So, you've read the blogger files? I am sure you also read above it said top secret??? *tisk tisk* You little rule breaker! (JK)
The Blogger Files I created just to get some facts straight and make it a big easier to acess the blogs.
Alright, so I noticed Dani and Deb kinda going at it on Dani's last post. Things were really burning (esp. since Deb brought hot wings.) Forgive me, it was just quite funny. Reminded me of a little RP thingy. ANYWAY.... the issue as you read in the blogger files is concerning. I mean, sure there is the bible and with all it's lessons and teachings, some parts are just unclear. What about history? I brought the question up once with a camp concerler (this is christian camp) on where were the dinos? Did Noah bring them on the ark? She said yes. I am like: "WHAT?" You see, it's just almost impossible to answer. The bible is in many aspects a mystery. It avoids some of the most curious questions. You know why? Well, I believe it's because, like an adult, teacher, or friend it wants you to get the answer. God gave us free will right? With free will comes the ability to learn along side many other characteristics. He wants us to figure it out for our own and the bible isn't a rule book. Just a tool with good advice and thoughts. Not how to live. How to live you, yourself must learn how to do. You may agree... you may disagree but I think I am right.
Must be going now. So much to do and (of course) so little time. I will return later to check on you all. Remember- if anything in the BLOGGER FILES is wrong, correct me.
LUVS
~taylor
note: sorry deb about the mixed up links earlier, have a good day :)
BLOGGERS PROFILES:
name- Dani
age- adult
blog- Generation X-pose
LINK- http://worstgenerationseed.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality goes against the bible and words of God
other- likes eminem
faith- Christian
name- Deb
age- adult
blog- Let Me Go On and On!
LINK- http://dtrant.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality does not go against the bible and words of god
other- recently injured neck
faith-Christian
name- Taylor
age- teen
blog- Soaring Heart
opinon- mostly agree with ~Deb
other- knows that she is bi- and in love with her BFF.
ability to hear god- not very good
faith- Christian
(if i got anything wrong please correct me so i can change you're profile)
The Issue: gay, bi-, lezbian, straight (what is right and what is wrong?)
The Answer: unknown yet
Manager and Administrator: God
THIS CONCLUDES THE BLOGGER FILES
So, you've read the blogger files? I am sure you also read above it said top secret??? *tisk tisk* You little rule breaker! (JK)
The Blogger Files I created just to get some facts straight and make it a big easier to acess the blogs.
Alright, so I noticed Dani and Deb kinda going at it on Dani's last post. Things were really burning (esp. since Deb brought hot wings.) Forgive me, it was just quite funny. Reminded me of a little RP thingy. ANYWAY.... the issue as you read in the blogger files is concerning. I mean, sure there is the bible and with all it's lessons and teachings, some parts are just unclear. What about history? I brought the question up once with a camp concerler (this is christian camp) on where were the dinos? Did Noah bring them on the ark? She said yes. I am like: "WHAT?" You see, it's just almost impossible to answer. The bible is in many aspects a mystery. It avoids some of the most curious questions. You know why? Well, I believe it's because, like an adult, teacher, or friend it wants you to get the answer. God gave us free will right? With free will comes the ability to learn along side many other characteristics. He wants us to figure it out for our own and the bible isn't a rule book. Just a tool with good advice and thoughts. Not how to live. How to live you, yourself must learn how to do. You may agree... you may disagree but I think I am right.
Must be going now. So much to do and (of course) so little time. I will return later to check on you all. Remember- if anything in the BLOGGER FILES is wrong, correct me.
LUVS
~taylor
note: sorry deb about the mixed up links earlier, have a good day :)
Monday, June 26, 2006
The Forecast and Am I Pursuaded
Today is just gross hot. I hate it. I am sitting her typing away and sweating horribly. I hate sweat. It's soooooooo disgusting. GET IT OFF ME!!! I hope it's better tomarrow :(
Ok, first part of headlines has been adressed. Part 2: "Am I pursuaded?" If you check previous comments in the Deb/Dani disscussions I loathed Dani and highly admired (and still do, even more actually!!!) Deb. Deb was someone who I could relate to more and Dani seemed like some nutcase out to hurt everyones feelings to suit her supposed way of living. Well, since then I've gotten a new screen name, attitude and mind (and open one.)
Dani and I have now become friends even though some of her sarcastic words towards Deb bug me a bit she's actually pretty nice. About me? She's just concerned. So why not listen? I did listen and though I am not yet pursuaded I can see things from her point of view. Her latest post.... oh darn. I forgot the title and I don't know how to do those linky things, but anyway, she made it for me and other readers as well. I had asked her where the heck it said in the bible not to be bi. Her post kindly explained to what she believes (and I kinda/sorta believe.) The only little thing that bugged me about her post was that being bi- is a greater sin than others. SIN IS SIN (if it is sin, which I am not really sure it is. i don't THINK it is... i don't know it isn't though.) God doesn't say: "Hey, murder is a really really bad sin. But lying isn't that bad." No. I imagine Him being more like: "Jane has sinned. As has Tommy. Their sister Lucy though, has not sinned." Of course, that's just my personal thought and what many other believe as well.
No, Dani, you have not yet pursuaded me into agreeing with you completlely but you have pursuaded me to be your friend :) As well as convinced me I need to look at things in more ways, it helps!!!
random question that is super baffeling: When were dinosuars??? Why did God make them? Were they outside the garden?
love ya deb + dani,
~tay
Ok, first part of headlines has been adressed. Part 2: "Am I pursuaded?" If you check previous comments in the Deb/Dani disscussions I loathed Dani and highly admired (and still do, even more actually!!!) Deb. Deb was someone who I could relate to more and Dani seemed like some nutcase out to hurt everyones feelings to suit her supposed way of living. Well, since then I've gotten a new screen name, attitude and mind (and open one.)
Dani and I have now become friends even though some of her sarcastic words towards Deb bug me a bit she's actually pretty nice. About me? She's just concerned. So why not listen? I did listen and though I am not yet pursuaded I can see things from her point of view. Her latest post.... oh darn. I forgot the title and I don't know how to do those linky things, but anyway, she made it for me and other readers as well. I had asked her where the heck it said in the bible not to be bi. Her post kindly explained to what she believes (and I kinda/sorta believe.) The only little thing that bugged me about her post was that being bi- is a greater sin than others. SIN IS SIN (if it is sin, which I am not really sure it is. i don't THINK it is... i don't know it isn't though.) God doesn't say: "Hey, murder is a really really bad sin. But lying isn't that bad." No. I imagine Him being more like: "Jane has sinned. As has Tommy. Their sister Lucy though, has not sinned." Of course, that's just my personal thought and what many other believe as well.
No, Dani, you have not yet pursuaded me into agreeing with you completlely but you have pursuaded me to be your friend :) As well as convinced me I need to look at things in more ways, it helps!!!
random question that is super baffeling: When were dinosuars??? Why did God make them? Were they outside the garden?
love ya deb + dani,
~tay
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Blogging Rampage
I really must slow down blogging but I can't help it. I am soooo into blogging right now. It's a side effect of those gummie frogs I bet. They are delicious! Umm. Could you excuse me for a moment?
*leaves* *grabs gummie frog* *returns*
currently chewing on gummie frog: YUM! Sooo good :)
Ok, so as I was saying... I believe this whole blogging constantly could be a side effect of the frogs.
This is... what my third, fourth post today? I mean before it was like one a day if at all (reffering to past blogs) but now, whoo! BLOG BLOG BLOG! It's a good stress reliever as well as boredom solution. I could type probably for hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours. WOW! Falling into a transe there. Sorry, but now you see my point.
Hopefully I will be able to find something. Well I have, reading but ya know. I'm hoping for something more. It's like if I'm not blogging I'm reading and visaversa................ i don't think that's how ya spell it :(
I want to make a bit more use of this perfectly good post and I've decided to conserve space and type my other thing up here. It's like saving trees only....... I'm saving interent. Ya right. Anyway, here's some questions I've been brainstorming for Deb and Dani and others.
1. Is the devil out to get us???
my opinion: no, only to tempt us
2. Who would be worse: someone who comits the crime or someone who allows a crime to be comit?
my opinion: the person who stands by and lets it occur if there is such a person in the certain situation
3. Are the bible peoples right in saying you shouldn't sit on the bed of- or touch someone who's........ must I say it??? COME ON! You know what I mean. Some lady who is: .
my opinion: ummm... no! it is crazy! i think whoever wrote that (oh i hope it wasn't God) was a complete nut! talk about obsessive compulsive much?
4. Why didn't God just make one Adam who could reproduce through splitting? (ya know like little cell thingys)
my opinion: IDK!!! please don't answer with: because it was to be. give me an OPINION.
5. What is the most evil object in the world?
my opinion: weapon or upside down, devil-worshipping cross thingy.... EVIL!
6. Do you believe anything on the matter of 6-6-6?
my opinion: no! i mean come'on. he (the devil) is just a jelous angel and that's his b-day (i think.) if he really wanted to burn all humanity don't you think he'd do it on the spot... not that he could.
7. Any thoughts on anime? (I just know some parents who think it's evil)
my opinion: yep. that and fluffy bunnies. beware!!!!
That's all I got for now. Any questions for me? Well, I guess I'll see in the comments :)
have a SPLENDIFEROUS day
~taylor
p.s. I am just in too good of a mood... what is wrong with me? lol. :)
*leaves* *grabs gummie frog* *returns*
currently chewing on gummie frog: YUM! Sooo good :)
Ok, so as I was saying... I believe this whole blogging constantly could be a side effect of the frogs.
This is... what my third, fourth post today? I mean before it was like one a day if at all (reffering to past blogs) but now, whoo! BLOG BLOG BLOG! It's a good stress reliever as well as boredom solution. I could type probably for hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours. WOW! Falling into a transe there. Sorry, but now you see my point.
Hopefully I will be able to find something. Well I have, reading but ya know. I'm hoping for something more. It's like if I'm not blogging I'm reading and visaversa................ i don't think that's how ya spell it :(
I want to make a bit more use of this perfectly good post and I've decided to conserve space and type my other thing up here. It's like saving trees only....... I'm saving interent. Ya right. Anyway, here's some questions I've been brainstorming for Deb and Dani and others.
1. Is the devil out to get us???
my opinion: no, only to tempt us
2. Who would be worse: someone who comits the crime or someone who allows a crime to be comit?
my opinion: the person who stands by and lets it occur if there is such a person in the certain situation
3. Are the bible peoples right in saying you shouldn't sit on the bed of- or touch someone who's........ must I say it??? COME ON! You know what I mean. Some lady who is: .
my opinion: ummm... no! it is crazy! i think whoever wrote that (oh i hope it wasn't God) was a complete nut! talk about obsessive compulsive much?
4. Why didn't God just make one Adam who could reproduce through splitting? (ya know like little cell thingys)
my opinion: IDK!!! please don't answer with: because it was to be. give me an OPINION.
5. What is the most evil object in the world?
my opinion: weapon or upside down, devil-worshipping cross thingy.... EVIL!
6. Do you believe anything on the matter of 6-6-6?
my opinion: no! i mean come'on. he (the devil) is just a jelous angel and that's his b-day (i think.) if he really wanted to burn all humanity don't you think he'd do it on the spot... not that he could.
7. Any thoughts on anime? (I just know some parents who think it's evil)
my opinion: yep. that and fluffy bunnies. beware!!!!
That's all I got for now. Any questions for me? Well, I guess I'll see in the comments :)
have a SPLENDIFEROUS day
~taylor
p.s. I am just in too good of a mood... what is wrong with me? lol. :)
A mi me encanta Deb y Dani!
For those of you who speak spanish you'd know that the post title is: I love Deb and Dani!!! As you know I really really did not care in the least bit for Dani before but her and I have become friends! I honestly love both of those chicks and they're great people. Yes, they are completely different, and yes, I lean towards one more than the other but I believe they are both great!
This post is for you, thanking you both for you're kindness and advice and helping me become an active blogger. Though I have to tell you... I am becoming a computer junkie because of you guys!!! lol. No not really, because I am reading books a bit. Just moments ago I happened to return from a nice little private session with one of my new favs: Wicked. I sat on the steps of my deck frying in the lovely summer heat. Hmm... wonder if I am any tanner?
Those names who I haven't mentioned, I appriciate your comments too :) Also I would like to thank those of you who know how to treat a teen and I give you the: knows-how-to-treat-a-teen award. lol. I very much appriciate and recognize my being treated more than some dumb, dramatic kid... which, trust me, I can be :(
Time to go!
Have a happy day
~Tay
You know, I'm loving this new signiture thing.
p.s. LOVING THE COMMENTS!!! :)
This post is for you, thanking you both for you're kindness and advice and helping me become an active blogger. Though I have to tell you... I am becoming a computer junkie because of you guys!!! lol. No not really, because I am reading books a bit. Just moments ago I happened to return from a nice little private session with one of my new favs: Wicked. I sat on the steps of my deck frying in the lovely summer heat. Hmm... wonder if I am any tanner?
Those names who I haven't mentioned, I appriciate your comments too :) Also I would like to thank those of you who know how to treat a teen and I give you the: knows-how-to-treat-a-teen award. lol. I very much appriciate and recognize my being treated more than some dumb, dramatic kid... which, trust me, I can be :(
Time to go!
Have a happy day
~Tay
You know, I'm loving this new signiture thing.
p.s. LOVING THE COMMENTS!!! :)
Childhood?
Suprisingly nothing significant ever happened there. I just was a good kid at home that played outside and assumed (being young) that I may have the ability to talk to animals. I was one of those cool chicks who could imitate sounds of just about any darn animal you could think of.... I had trouble with the fish and zebra though but an expert in lions, cats, and dogs. Some birds too.
Not exactly proud of it but it was a habit and I was much younger.
School? Well, I'll start at key memories I have from the begginning. Me and friends playing pochohauntus and tag. Then in a different school I moved up to bigger games that fit the era of poke'mon and more tag along with hide-and-go-seek. In class we made cool little rubber thingys by melting those beads. I got frusterated on occasion cause they kept spilling. I had a best friend who kinda took me for granted (idk how to spell it) and once convinced me she had gone blind and toted me around like a fool. She and I moved away and then went to seperate schools but she was my first big best friend prob.
Later years I hung out more with girls but I associated with guys well. I prefered their company because most girls could be snobby. Me and my friends (the girl ones) played games that we were hamsters and would hide under the playground. They were my dearest friends until they invited the evil twins to join us and they eventually turned against me. Later on in life we became friends again :) Junior high? Well, that's current state and I met the most amazing friends. It was the best school (though unorganized) and I love it!!!! Everyone there is nice. And I couldn't have a better best friend: she doesn't take me for granted, is never mean, loves hanging out, and is funny. Oh! She can also read me like a book and doesn't give up trying to cheer me up when I'm down.
Pretty good I say....
For summer every year I go to a christian camp (usually a horse one) and I've done it since I was young. I learn really cool things and have a blast. I try to go to church but the one I attended was a long way away and I only went with a friend so I'm kinda on my own. I don't like alota churches, they are stuffy and treat kids and teens not-so-nicely.
I consider my life far from tragedy and I hope you agree :)
I must go, I don't wanna hang around the computer too long!
Thanks Dani. Thank you all! And Good DAY!
have a happy day
~love tay
HEY THAT RYMES..... tehe.
Not exactly proud of it but it was a habit and I was much younger.
School? Well, I'll start at key memories I have from the begginning. Me and friends playing pochohauntus and tag. Then in a different school I moved up to bigger games that fit the era of poke'mon and more tag along with hide-and-go-seek. In class we made cool little rubber thingys by melting those beads. I got frusterated on occasion cause they kept spilling. I had a best friend who kinda took me for granted (idk how to spell it) and once convinced me she had gone blind and toted me around like a fool. She and I moved away and then went to seperate schools but she was my first big best friend prob.
Later years I hung out more with girls but I associated with guys well. I prefered their company because most girls could be snobby. Me and my friends (the girl ones) played games that we were hamsters and would hide under the playground. They were my dearest friends until they invited the evil twins to join us and they eventually turned against me. Later on in life we became friends again :) Junior high? Well, that's current state and I met the most amazing friends. It was the best school (though unorganized) and I love it!!!! Everyone there is nice. And I couldn't have a better best friend: she doesn't take me for granted, is never mean, loves hanging out, and is funny. Oh! She can also read me like a book and doesn't give up trying to cheer me up when I'm down.
Pretty good I say....
For summer every year I go to a christian camp (usually a horse one) and I've done it since I was young. I learn really cool things and have a blast. I try to go to church but the one I attended was a long way away and I only went with a friend so I'm kinda on my own. I don't like alota churches, they are stuffy and treat kids and teens not-so-nicely.
I consider my life far from tragedy and I hope you agree :)
I must go, I don't wanna hang around the computer too long!
Thanks Dani. Thank you all! And Good DAY!
have a happy day
~love tay
HEY THAT RYMES..... tehe.
SUUUUUMMMMEEERR- todays forecast
Wow, today is like the most fabulous day to go to a lake. If only I could magically conjur up a lake in my yard......... ABRA CADABRA!!! LAKE, APPEAR! No such luck. Maybe I should try for a smaller thing? Maybe a........... POOL! ABRA CADABRA POOL! Ya know, I'm starting to get the impression that I am not magic. LOL. Maybe I should just... go take a cold bath??? Nah, it's no where near the same effect as a nice swim. Oh well, maybe something will come up and one of my buds will call me.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
"My [Friend] Shot Me Down"
Thank you friends for coming again... if you're not here well than I guess I'm just talking to myself. Ok, I wish to begin explaining the title of this post to you. As I am sure you know, there is a song sang by Cher, also the Kill Bill theme song. It goes like this: "I was 5 and he was 6, we ride on horses made of sticks. He was black and I was white. He would always win the fight, BANG BANG! He shot me down. BANG BANG! I hit the ground. BANG BANG, that awful sound. BANG BANG! My baby shot me down...." Ok, obviously the difference between song and title. Title is shorter (no duh) and baby has been replaced with friend. A person, I was starting to grow closer to, inch by inch, shot me down a bit. Dani, you're comments about a broken house hold hurt but I know you only want the best so I am gonna get up. Pluck those bullets out and shake your hand. We're different you and I, and you're much stronger (reffering a bit to the song) in how you.... *thinking of how to put this again* throw you're ideas out there. But I'm still always gonna keep trying to maintain peace.
Don't refer to the rest of the song please cause I don't know it. Let's just keep to that one little piece in case theres any other parts that wind up making me sound evil. Not good. Yes, you're right in saying that the "truth" hurts (supposing you're opinion is correct) but that's not whats bugging me. The think about guessing that my home is broken. My home is not! Oh... must check myself. I really want us to get along. And I know you said it with the thought that you may be wrong at guessing. I just... I don't know. I't really made my head hot for a second there. So I come forward again and shake you're hand, wiping the comment from my head. Thank you again Dani and I hope to talk to you soon!
HAVE A HAPPY DAY EVERYONE :)
Don't refer to the rest of the song please cause I don't know it. Let's just keep to that one little piece in case theres any other parts that wind up making me sound evil. Not good. Yes, you're right in saying that the "truth" hurts (supposing you're opinion is correct) but that's not whats bugging me. The think about guessing that my home is broken. My home is not! Oh... must check myself. I really want us to get along. And I know you said it with the thought that you may be wrong at guessing. I just... I don't know. I't really made my head hot for a second there. So I come forward again and shake you're hand, wiping the comment from my head. Thank you again Dani and I hope to talk to you soon!
HAVE A HAPPY DAY EVERYONE :)
On a More Cheerful Note!
Hey people, I've decided to change the topic. Let's move onto something that's hard to disagree on and I know you most definatly love: SUMMER IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, the weather is nice, the beach is open and there are so many fabulous things to do! I've spent some parts of my summer hanging with my best buds, reading, blogging and ............. *thinking of other things* oh! And playing catch, walking, exploring, chatting. So many different fun things! Really. Let's stop arguing for a minute and find what's in common in us. I apologize for the people on the opposite side of the globe in winter. I can't do much for you except say: It'll be summer soon!!!
I gotta go but I'll be blogging soon again :)
I gotta go but I'll be blogging soon again :)
Friday, June 23, 2006
Maybe A Bit More Love?
In history how many different events can you think of that people protested at? Ok, that's a start. Now think how many of those were violent protests and how many more people were hurt at those? Got it? Moving on: How many of the events protested at violently got what they wanted? The more violent usually gets you what you want but so many more are hurt am I right? Yes I am aware that a more peaceful approach takes longer but if people attempted talking out their issues and being a bit more polite on matters upon which they were protesting we'd have quite a many less problems around the world am I right?! I believe so.
Upon the discussions in my dear friend Deb's blog as well and the recently aquainted (sp) Dani who I found I can get along with better through peaceful words. Deb and Dani started out a bit more "violently" at first but then got to sit down and do a blog-guest thing. This I was actually quite surprised at. Really I mean, two people who absoloutly positively disagree with one another becoming friends. At the time I was a bit blind because of my loathing passion, one might say, for Dani because at the time I found her to be rude and selfish. Until recently I was always infuriated at what she said but overcame that and decided to call a peaceful truce.
Dani called me and or my situation "an absoloute tragedy" which no one can appriciate but I decided instead of snapping back at her like my imidate impulse I commented politely. Not bad eh?
So in the end the point I want to get across is try a peaceful manner, it may take longer, but a lot less hurting can be done ;)
HAVE A HAPPY DAY
p.s. thank you Dani and Deb
Upon the discussions in my dear friend Deb's blog as well and the recently aquainted (sp) Dani who I found I can get along with better through peaceful words. Deb and Dani started out a bit more "violently" at first but then got to sit down and do a blog-guest thing. This I was actually quite surprised at. Really I mean, two people who absoloutly positively disagree with one another becoming friends. At the time I was a bit blind because of my loathing passion, one might say, for Dani because at the time I found her to be rude and selfish. Until recently I was always infuriated at what she said but overcame that and decided to call a peaceful truce.
Dani called me and or my situation "an absoloute tragedy" which no one can appriciate but I decided instead of snapping back at her like my imidate impulse I commented politely. Not bad eh?
So in the end the point I want to get across is try a peaceful manner, it may take longer, but a lot less hurting can be done ;)
HAVE A HAPPY DAY
p.s. thank you Dani and Deb
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
UPDATE ON NATASHA & WHY I WORRY
Ok, so I got a hold of "Natasha" as I named her in my previous posts and explained the situation starting with the devil-worshiping band HIM that she listens to. She rebuttled (i don't know if that's the right word or spelling) in that I hadn't even listened to one song except for "Rip the Wings Off a Butterfly." VIOLENT MUCH?! I don't care if it's a good song... I don't have to hear their other songs. You just look at the name and look at the little symbol! It's supposed to be a "heart gram" but it's an upside-down star tweaked a bit. Add it all up and it means "I LOVE HIM." HIM would be the devil. The music thing was ok for a while but than her father specifacally said: "You can listen to the music but you're not getting any clothing and stuff." SHE DID!!! She went behind his back. I hope he finds out!
The next issue I adressed was that she's depressy all the time and she doesn't need to be. There's no purpose to it and that it's wrong! She said "that's how I always am." I asked her why and she didn't exactly answer. She is doing it because she wants her "IMAGE." She wants a tough, goth, mean image that she thinks makes her look cool. BUT IT DOESN'T! She wears ugly trashy looking clothes and I am starting to get sick of it. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! She complains she's fat (which she is not) and wears those clothes. I just want her to shut up and be the old Natasha. I hate the new one!
The new Natasha also is mean to a lot of her friends in being disrespectful and condesending. I've watched it many many times. It's WRONG! She even does it to me, but I get by easier cause we're pretty close. Next time I see her face to face I am gonna sit her down and give her this lecture again. I will! And I will have evidence that HIM is a devil-worshipping band. SO HA!!!
I also confronted her with the whole thing about saying she was no longer christian and she's like: "I was joking. No, I still am christian." HA! She was joking! Well, she sure didn't sound like it at the time and ya know what, that's not a funny joke! Do you think that's funny? No? I sure don't. It is just spinning out of control and I don't want to see her go down that way. Honestly, I hate being told how to be and act and I would never want to tell people how to be.
I am off to get my proof! GOOD BYE!
p.s. any suggestions?
Ok, so I got a hold of "Natasha" as I named her in my previous posts and explained the situation starting with the devil-worshiping band HIM that she listens to. She rebuttled (i don't know if that's the right word or spelling) in that I hadn't even listened to one song except for "Rip the Wings Off a Butterfly." VIOLENT MUCH?! I don't care if it's a good song... I don't have to hear their other songs. You just look at the name and look at the little symbol! It's supposed to be a "heart gram" but it's an upside-down star tweaked a bit. Add it all up and it means "I LOVE HIM." HIM would be the devil. The music thing was ok for a while but than her father specifacally said: "You can listen to the music but you're not getting any clothing and stuff." SHE DID!!! She went behind his back. I hope he finds out!
The next issue I adressed was that she's depressy all the time and she doesn't need to be. There's no purpose to it and that it's wrong! She said "that's how I always am." I asked her why and she didn't exactly answer. She is doing it because she wants her "IMAGE." She wants a tough, goth, mean image that she thinks makes her look cool. BUT IT DOESN'T! She wears ugly trashy looking clothes and I am starting to get sick of it. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! She complains she's fat (which she is not) and wears those clothes. I just want her to shut up and be the old Natasha. I hate the new one!
The new Natasha also is mean to a lot of her friends in being disrespectful and condesending. I've watched it many many times. It's WRONG! She even does it to me, but I get by easier cause we're pretty close. Next time I see her face to face I am gonna sit her down and give her this lecture again. I will! And I will have evidence that HIM is a devil-worshipping band. SO HA!!!
I also confronted her with the whole thing about saying she was no longer christian and she's like: "I was joking. No, I still am christian." HA! She was joking! Well, she sure didn't sound like it at the time and ya know what, that's not a funny joke! Do you think that's funny? No? I sure don't. It is just spinning out of control and I don't want to see her go down that way. Honestly, I hate being told how to be and act and I would never want to tell people how to be.
I am off to get my proof! GOOD BYE!
p.s. any suggestions?
Monday, June 19, 2006
Greetings. Welcome to another post of anylizing the problems in my little life. I am still worried about my pal and I can't get a hold of her. What to do what to do? Well, I have a thought. In this bored time of nothingness I shall write a story. It's a story I've been thinking about when I was on the beach looking at this broken bridge. I don't wanna work on it now exactly but I'll get around to it. Hey, I'll check in later kk? BYE!
p.s. have a happy day.
p.s. have a happy day.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
The Latest
Luckily I snapped many photos of my friends and brought a big board to school and had all my pals sign it. When I get home I am going to hang it up on my wall and with some pictures and scrapbook the rest. I can't wait to be back with everyone. I've never had a better gang of friends. All their little notes on the board were so nice and my heart soared when I found that they really did think I was funny and nice. You see there are some people at shcool who treat me very poorly and say I am dumb and not funny. Also I can be mean and so I get worried. But my friends really do think I am nice and I was showered in great strong hugs. My spirits are so much higher. I guess you just need to look at the positive things more so than the negative. That's what I tell my friend, I'll just give her the name Natasha because I don't think she'd want me using her really name.... which would bring me to my next issue.
Natasha has been one of my best friends since... oh I dunno 4th or 5th grade. When we went to middle school we went to different schools and she has changed. Natasha and I are still friends and still hang out only with a couple differences.... a couple BIG differences. Natasha is a depressy, moody, and negative girl now... did I mention she cuts her arms? She also threeatens to run away and blames everything on herself. She says her mother doesn't let her do anything when actually she has it pretty good and is just being a brat. For example- she now wears trashy, baggy, black goth clothes. We were in this store and she wanted this really ugly goth black long skirt... very trashy and it cost $50!!!!!!! Her mother said no (thank god) and she threw a fit. The cutting thing is a serious concern though it isn't as bad as I thought cause it's only scratching. (whew) The WORST issue I believe is over the devil-worshipping band "HIM" and I asked "Natasha" and she said she's no longer christian. I don't think she's devil-worshipping but not far from it. What do I do??? I don't want to lose her friendship but I don't want her to be this way anymore. She was once a fun-loving and cheerful girl and now she is depressy and quite rude to her friends, even me (only not so bad). She tells them to shut up when they just want to comfort and be nice to her. It's sooooo stressful. I'm losing my friend fast and she's more and more making her own misery. WHAT TO DO?!?!? Life is hard but she's making it so much harder on herself and the HIM band and some of the friends she has aren't curing the problem and don't care. Ugh, I am so irritated because she is so selfish! *grrrrrrrrrr*
Sorry about that.... listen people I need to go for now but will be back soon.
DEB, I NEED ADVICE!!!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
First and Key
Hello,
My name is Taylor. Welcome to my blog. This blog will be I believe my 3rd but I am using it under a different screen name for the fact that I don't want all my fans (aka friends) of my other blog to know about my bisexuality and the fact that I'm in love with my best friend. Since about, I dunno 4 months ago? Ya, I have fallen deeper and deeper in love with my dear buddie but don't get me wrong, we have a totally normal teenage bff relashionship although we have a small obsession with making up little stories about hitting her mother with a fly swatter. You're next question probably is does she love me back? No, she does not though she has a little crush she is busy in her own boy relashionships which I have come to accept.
Before I go any farther I want to say thank you to my dear friend and inspiration Deb. I hope you'll get to read this sometime :)
Today I was informed that my love and I may be torn apart by her mother who may be taking a job up in Oregon. Her mother isn't very lovely you see and does what she can to torment her daughter so we're planning to run away before it can happen or calling the police. You see (sorry I am not using names but I'd like to respect the fact that they probably don't want their names up here) her mother is abusive and it worries me a great deal. I mean it's not black eye, just usually a slap on the face, but still it's wrong and she mentally abuseses her by being a "fun sucker." The mom sucks the fun out of virtually everything! Well, no, that's wrong. See our theory is that she is Satan's ex-wife and was thrown out of hell, adopted her now daughter and cheers her up just to bring her down and feeds off her sorrow. Sad huh? But most likely true. Hmph. The point being is that my buddie needs out of that house!!! What to do?!?
I've come to discover through Deb that I need a stronger connection with God and until then I am getting advice from her. I was told once by a friend that the closer your with God the easier you here Him. Over the years I've drifted in and out of connction but it was really nothing too impressive. I want to hear Him. I just wish I could figure out how. I'm starting with reading the bible in hopes that it may lead me in the right direction. I wish I could go to church but it makes me quite uneasy for some reason and many Christians don't except my type of sexuality... not that I would tell them but I would just know that I was unwanted, a not-so-loverly feeling. Most of the lessons about the bible and stuff I learn at camps I go to. I started going to christian camps when I was young and my grandmothe sent me, now all my cousins go to a certain one but I have branched off and go to horse camp. It is there where I will be going soon for another exciting year. Last year I asked questions, took notes, and sang songs with feeling and this year ya know what? I plan to do just that only better. I am determined!!!!
I am very indeed sorry to depart and I apologize that this probably hasn't been the most interesting first post but I am working on becoming a more serious and honest blogger so I hope you'll give me a bit longer.
To my dearest inspiration and friend
~Deb
p.s. THANK YOU!!! :)
p.p.s. what should I do about my friend and her mom?!
My name is Taylor. Welcome to my blog. This blog will be I believe my 3rd but I am using it under a different screen name for the fact that I don't want all my fans (aka friends) of my other blog to know about my bisexuality and the fact that I'm in love with my best friend. Since about, I dunno 4 months ago? Ya, I have fallen deeper and deeper in love with my dear buddie but don't get me wrong, we have a totally normal teenage bff relashionship although we have a small obsession with making up little stories about hitting her mother with a fly swatter. You're next question probably is does she love me back? No, she does not though she has a little crush she is busy in her own boy relashionships which I have come to accept.
Before I go any farther I want to say thank you to my dear friend and inspiration Deb. I hope you'll get to read this sometime :)
Today I was informed that my love and I may be torn apart by her mother who may be taking a job up in Oregon. Her mother isn't very lovely you see and does what she can to torment her daughter so we're planning to run away before it can happen or calling the police. You see (sorry I am not using names but I'd like to respect the fact that they probably don't want their names up here) her mother is abusive and it worries me a great deal. I mean it's not black eye, just usually a slap on the face, but still it's wrong and she mentally abuseses her by being a "fun sucker." The mom sucks the fun out of virtually everything! Well, no, that's wrong. See our theory is that she is Satan's ex-wife and was thrown out of hell, adopted her now daughter and cheers her up just to bring her down and feeds off her sorrow. Sad huh? But most likely true. Hmph. The point being is that my buddie needs out of that house!!! What to do?!?
I've come to discover through Deb that I need a stronger connection with God and until then I am getting advice from her. I was told once by a friend that the closer your with God the easier you here Him. Over the years I've drifted in and out of connction but it was really nothing too impressive. I want to hear Him. I just wish I could figure out how. I'm starting with reading the bible in hopes that it may lead me in the right direction. I wish I could go to church but it makes me quite uneasy for some reason and many Christians don't except my type of sexuality... not that I would tell them but I would just know that I was unwanted, a not-so-loverly feeling. Most of the lessons about the bible and stuff I learn at camps I go to. I started going to christian camps when I was young and my grandmothe sent me, now all my cousins go to a certain one but I have branched off and go to horse camp. It is there where I will be going soon for another exciting year. Last year I asked questions, took notes, and sang songs with feeling and this year ya know what? I plan to do just that only better. I am determined!!!!
I am very indeed sorry to depart and I apologize that this probably hasn't been the most interesting first post but I am working on becoming a more serious and honest blogger so I hope you'll give me a bit longer.
To my dearest inspiration and friend
~Deb
p.s. THANK YOU!!! :)
p.p.s. what should I do about my friend and her mom?!
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