Quote of the Week

While sitting in a class which as I recall being quite dull, I flipped through the pages of my planner and while doing so discovered that located at the top of every right page that there was a quote. Now as you know planners are books with months, weeks, or days in them. Mine just so happens to be a weekly planner so a set of a left and right page is one week. Monday, Tuesday, and Wendsday on the left and Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday on the right. Fascinating isn't it? Anyway, so I've decided that everyweek I shall extract the weekly quote from my planner and post it here. Quite cleverI believe.... and a good indicator of how bored I am...

This Week's Weekly Quote I believe is positively superb and I hope you appriciate it.

"A Satyagahi will always try to overcome evil by good, anger by love, untruth by truth. Ther is no other way of purging the world of evil." -Mahatma Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi (1869-1948)

I looked up the word "satyagahi" and I believe it means peacemaker which would make sense, no?

I think I shall memorize this superb quote for it is indeed fabulous and should make good discussion if the occasion arises. Maybe you'll find yourself memorizing it to for similar or even a completely different purpose.

Well, I must be off to type up a bit of homework but I shall return, mark my words I shall!!!

LOVE,
XOXO,
FOREVER COOL,
~ME~

The Wonderful World of Bloggerville is....

...apparently not so wonderful. I've seen several cases lately of total miss-use of blogger and it makes me really sad. The first is something Dani brought to my attention. She's discovered that blogger is host to many blogs owned by creeps such as.. well, actually I'll just put a link in for Dani's blog and you can see there, just scroll to the bottom.

In other news (well... actually just in another place) Deb has discovered what could be a confusing situation. Is it blogger-identity theft or is it a coincidence? Either way the whole "mark" and "mark" situation is confuzzling.


(about 5 minutes later)

Ha!!! I have found a breakthrough. Mark and Mark are indeed the same indivduals according to their profiles and links. The so-called real mark that posted the comment about the mark being a fraud either has a hacker or has split personality/opinoin issues.

I am such a freakin genius.












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To Have A Cold or Not To Have A Cold

It'd be so cool if I could choose but nobody really has much choice in the matter do they? The answer is no, no they don't . Alright, so I am still sick but not as bad before but still. I have low self-esteem to start out and being sick is soooo not helping. I mean seriously, is my immune sytsem trying to torture me? I can so picture little creatures inside me (kinda like in that movie osmosis jones or whatever) just sitting at a card table playing cards with my cold. Not how it's supposed to work!!! The little creatures are supposed to be savagely attacking the virus!!! That's how it should be but no, it's turning out to be the longest game of poker ever if you get my metaphor.

Dijon or American?

Wow, just took a mustard bath (wait... I shall explain) and it was fabulous. I feel quite a bit better. Ok, so me and my mom went to this bath salt store I had been dying to visit and there I got two things of salts. As we were at the counter the lady was examining one of the salts I had chosen (stress-relieving) and she asked "Are you stressed?" and the response was "no, have I a cold." She then proceeded to point out a packet of Dr. (something I can't remmber)'s Mustard Bath Cure... or whatever. So when I get home I pour half the packet in and take a bath. It was kinda odd because the mustard powder (though incredibly curing and soothing) turned the water yellow. So if your sick, I suggest taking a mustard bath... it helps a good bit. My nose feels better and my skin is oh so very soft. I love it! Well, that's all I got for now but I'll write tomarrow if I can. I need to go study spanish... CIAO!

Taylor & the 7 Feelings (as opposed to the 7 dwarves)

Who can name the 7 feelings of a cold? I can....

Sneezey, Sleepy, Grumpy, Stuffy, Drippy, Icky, and Blah.

I'm feeling all of those at this moment in time, a really great combo eh? NOT! I am so ....soo.. YUCK!!!When will this virus end? I mean, it's bad enough to keep in a state of positive misery but I'm not well enough to go to school and still feel like I may have a chance of being relatively ok looking or whatever. Nope. It's like being stuck in health limbo.

I've taken medicine, dranken two bottles of orange cream sobe (major vitamen c), tried chicken noodle, tomato, and eaten fruits. But nooooo... for some reason my immune system is just to lazy to do jack!
*%$@!

I saw this coming. My parents had it. Students at school were absent and those who weren't seemed not too hot either. Believe me, I tried to prevent this. Vitamens, exersize (trying to lose some weight too btw) and even eatings.... *dramatic music*..vegatables. But, alas, nothing to push away the evil curse. It came upon me slowly and with no mercy... like a exucitioner who pretends to reach for the lever that will realese the trap door beneath my feet, for the nuce to tighten. I flinch only to realize I must bare the aggnoy for another moment. Dramatic? Yeah... majorly. How I feel? Pretty accurate.

If you have any suggustions for a cure to this intolerable pleague... please post a comment. Thank you and good day. *cough sniff wheeze sneeze choke*

The Begining of the End

So school is up and running. Summer is gone... autumn is here. That means homework, stress, tests, and teachers. On a more positive note: boys, friends, gossip... it's all an adventure.

All is well in school. I got good teachers for the most part and the grades are good so far... well, spanish could be better but with an upcoming test I should be able to boost my grade.

My Teachers

Art- she's really looney and a kid inside. Once she made us do "the twist" after class. I was worried I'd have nightmares.

Language Arts/English- he's done every job I swear. So far me and my friends have discovered: chef, pilot, art director, drama teacher, camp counsler. I think there were a couple more acutally and I am sure a lot more to be recorded.

Algerbra- so nice, so fun. A great person and I love her.

Spanish- really nice but gets on my nerves because she can be really insensitive to things... such as saying peoples grades outloud!

Social Studies- he's my favorite. He's funny and cool and just so ausome!!! I am one of his favorite students I believe... teacher's pet you might say.

Science- she would be the not-so-sweet apple of the bunch. She's an organization natzi and she's from michigan or whatever and always says "right?" in a (what i'd imagine to be) michiginian accent. Well, atleast she's relatively nice.

What were your teachers like in school???

Really Back

Ok, this time I am actually trying to stick to blogging but this school year is going and is a lot harder than last.

Alright to start my blogging I will give a brief detailed description of what's up...

situation between me and bff (the one i was in love with): currently we're just friends and over the summer i got past my obsession... good thing no? lol.

at the moment i am sooooo head over heels for this one guy at school, codename: u-kno-who. So anyway, u-kno-who is majorly hott and a really amazing person. Fabulous smile, shy, and quiet but friendly. Perfect. One problem? How do I get to know him???? He's not in any of my classes because well, he's a year older... makes things a bit difficult.

besides boys school is going good but i need to work on the spanish... not doing so hot there.

well, i got to go... im on the phone with bff and i it's hard to talk and type....

ciao!!

BACK!

Hey Everybody!

I'm back from my long break of blogging. How you all been? Well, I won't go in to detail but my vacation turned out to be pretty damn good :) I'm off to say hi to everyone. See you in bloggerville!

LOVE,
TAYLOR

Abram... Abraham...LINCON! (not)

Ha ha! Took this long to click that the song I used to sing at my first camp wasn't talking about Aberham Lincon. It was talking about Abraham! (i don't think I spelled that right... oh well.)

The song went like this:

Father Abraham, had many sons
And many sons had fath-er Abra-ham
And I am one of them
And so are you
So let's all (something something)

It wasn't Lincon it was the other Abraham, the important one. Makes sense now.

I would prefer you didn't comment on my slowness on the matter.

Anyway, if you can't tell I am reading about Abraham even though I already watched the entire (and very long may I point out) movie Abraham with Charelton Heston (i think...) which actually is quite good.

Oh I also figured out that Sadam and Gomorha (I know I spelled that wrong..) weren't people, ha! They were cities. YAY ME! I mean doesn't it sound like 2 people? Sadam and his wife Gomorah or something? You can't blame me for misunderstanding. The counsler who was talking about it didn't explain!

Hm. Well, that's all I have for now, and remember, it wasn't LINCON!!! lol.

Church-o-Phobia & The Christhedral

"Phobia" is a suffix meaning fear of. So I have a fear of Churches? No it's not like I faint when I see one. I just can't stand them, I can't stand the people. Now you're like: "Oh well it really doesn't matter. You shouldn't care because you go to glorify God not examine the interior." You know what? It does matter to a Church-o-Phobic. If one is to have their mind fully devoted to the Lord don't you think they should be somewhere comfortable where they feel at peace? YES!

What I wish for is more Cathedrals. Now I would gladly attend one of those as a Church. Cathredrals are honestly one of the most beautiful pieces of architechture I have seen. Way better then houses, hotels, movie theaters, and so on, they have such... I don't know the word but it's there! Now I realize most Cathedrals (well, not most... I assume all) are for cathlics. (dunno if I spelled that right)

This brings me to the point that we should make Christedrals. Not a bad idea eh? You'll see. When I turn 18, or however old you have to be to play the lottery I am going to win and build the most beautiful Christedral! The inside will be smoothed stone and there will be no gross carpets or any bad art work. I will hire the finest painters to decorate it with masterpieces of angels and saints. Sound's pretty nice doesn't it? Ah, and what about the outside? Well it would be fine stone with tall elegant pillars and amazing carvings. Lot's of swirly patterns. The path to the Christedral would be cobblestone, I love cobblestones so much you don't even know. There would also be fine shrubs and such on the sides of the path. Then around the side/back of my Christhedral there would be a mosiac garden and some places to eat. It would be an absoloutly fabulous place to be married. I don't think I'd want kids allowed. They are too noisy and make a mess... perhaps it could be part private school. Now those kind of kids are quite nice. A Christhedral/Christian Private School.

Oh it sounds positively fabulous. *happy sigh*

What do you all think of my "Christhedral"? Any architechs out there? No stealing my idea either! (c) THAT IS A COPYRIGHT SYMBOL SO HA!

I am an absoloute guinuis (i don't think i can even spell that... oh well.) I have invented the most superb place. No more Church-o-Phobia for me! I am free! I am free! YIPEE!

Well, I am looking forward to feedback on this subject but for now I am going to go day dream/lunch about my wonderful Christhedral and all the interesting things I shall do.

Starting Over Again

Ha ha! I've done it, I've actually picked up the bible. Shocking isn't it? Well, I had started with Proverbs but I decided just to start over again. I read 9 chapters I think... or maybe more. I got a little past the tower of babel. Yeah, just wanted to share that with you and say I am actually working on it.

I Liked It~ response to the show

Dear Dani,

Believe it or not. I really liked the show a lot. I mean the 1st part was kinda sorta but like you said earlier, the 3rd part was best. Your husband did a very good job at adressing the heart of something I myself didn't explain. Why am I bi? Well he said several thoughts of his, one of them being a screwed-up family life. That I am glad to say is NOT true. The truth is I am bi because yes, the guys at school are dirt bags. I mean, they don't harass me or anything but most of them are immature and rude not to mention total perverts.

I would like to say also that I don't have cable, it's such a waste of time. I don't like MTV either except for... I think it was on MTV.... "Pimp My Ride." It's quite cool actually not that I can watch it anymore with the no-cable thing. I just thought it was quite humerous :)

On the show there were a lot of assumtions made about me I didn't care for but it's just because you don't know me super well. That's ok. Maybe I'll take you up on you're offer and be a guest on the show. My only hesitation is my parents looking at the phone bill and being like: "who's this?!?! why'd you call them?!" My dad can be quite over protective. But I dunno, I'll see if I can figure something out.

I'm gonna e-mail you on the show too later but I just wanted to do a quick response before I go eat.

Thank you. I loved the show.
~taylor

p.s. LOVED IT!

The Rainbow War

by Taylor

Because of the sinful ways humans have led and because of our foolish ways, humans lives have grown shorter and shorter since Adam and Eve. Life is short. I know you've heard it before but it's so true. Life is too short for these hateful feelings towards others. My rainbowrific homies, (those of homosexual ways) are different. So what? Has anyone besides me noticed that gay men are sooooo much more fun to hang out with then our average day genteleman... pardon me, they don't even deserve the term "gentelman." Take apart that word "gentleman." Come on, it's not hard. Crack it right about the middle and what do you get? Gentle men. Many men these days happen to be very UN-gentle and I betchya something, those abusive and rude and stuck-up ones are the straight ones! I'm not going to make any more waves with them because I know some can actually be quite kind.

Where was I again? Oh yes. How life is too short to wage these rainbow wars. It honestly is. If you're going to be picking on people for being un-godly, put your energy towards the goths! Well, not necessarily. Goths happen to be sometimes christian... so let me refraise that (hmm.. refraise... how do you spell that) take it on those creep devil-worshipping people not homosexuals. Don't you think God, if homesexuals are (which I really think is B.S.) disobeying the holy laws He can assist them? I do. Sometimes I have a hard time putting my faith in God but I always in the end do. You know why? Because God loves me. Yes, God despises and hates some aspects of people, such as a lying tongue, but God still loves the person. It is the same with gay people don't you agree? (don't answer that.) YES! I don't think God has a problem with them. It's anti-Jesus people I bet he has a tough time with.

I would like to share some things at camp I heard and learned and liked (wow that sounds wierd....) Jesus is a problem solver. He specializes in messed-up lives. He wants to help us become better. That means those of you who are attacking us rainbowrific believers, you need to stop. You can continue to believe we are living against God but you need to pray to God that He will help us, not take things into your own hands. If our lives are messed up as you believe, Jesus will help us and if we are smart, we will listen, pray, and discover the truth. That is what I call some one-on-one with Jesus time. Yeah. Cool. I like it.

Wanna hear something else interesting? The whole time I was at camp, they didn't tell us what not to do, they told us what to do. They didn't tell us to not be mean. They told us to be nice. They didn't tell us to stop hating our neighbors but to love our neighbors. Some of you may be saying: what the heck? It's the same thing! But you're wrong. One is so much more positive. So if you're telling people "DON'T DO THAT, DON'T DO THIS, YOU'RE WRONG!!!" Honestly. That is such a pain in the ass. Soooo negative. So unwanted. So don't do it!

(I apologize if you don't like swearing but technichally I wasn't directing it at someone....)

I would like to make a blogger petition in my comments. If you belive the christian nut-cases and just stuck-up people need to stop and if you want the rainbowrific war to end leave a comment! I will be greatly interested in the results :) Ya know, I am getting the idea if I should make some shirts that say: END THE RAINBOW WAR! Tehe.... that'd be cool. I love rainbows did I tell you? Sorry... that's random but I do!

PLEASE TELL ME YOUR OPINION ON THIS RAINBOW WAR :)

Permission??

Dani, I am a bit confused. The show about Deb and I is from July 15. How come you just told us? Don't you think you maybe should've told me first?!?! Or is it not going to be "on air" or whatever yet? I am so confuzzled.

Sooooo Not Prepared~ an opinon writing piece

While at camp I came upon a very small and young boy. He appeared to be in approximently 4th grade, the minumum age premitted at where I went. To my great surpise he was in 7th grade. He was probably about half the height of a regular teenager if you can imagine. He was also a vegetarian (considering going vegan) and home schooled. This is what my piece is about. How homeschool is sick!

Now, I happen to have a fabulous friend who is home schooled but she actually get's out and get's involved! I swear this boy at camp has never been in normal society. He eats leaves, talks to trees, and behaves in a quite girly and young manner. I swear he makes my 7 year old cuz look like... oh idk, the Queen of England. Like that serious if ya see what I mean. Not english or a girl just serious. ANYWAY, I believe this home schooling is a bit of a danger. The boy was sooooooooo not prepared for being around us.

Listen, I know you all know damn good come backs and if you don't you are quite good at adressign matters. It sounded like he was taking advice from a therapist. Somebody was picking on him a bit (which i totally don't think is cool) but he's like : "I don't like you calling me names, being hit, or treated mean." Honestly, it's nice, but WHO DOES THAT?!?! No, what you need to do is say: "hey, can you please just bugg off? I don't appriciate you getting on my case."
Where was I now? Oh, so yes, this kid was not prepared. He was christian and very devoted but just because you're christian doesn't mean you can't cuss someone off. I held my tongue at the camp as a matter of respect but I don't think the boy had ever sworn in his life. Why not?! WHY THE FRICK NOT!? It teaches those around you to respect you. I mean, I don't go around calling people fugly to their face. That is REALLY mean, but telling someone "go screw a cow" when their bugging ya is efficiant.

Home schooled students aren't prepared in language, behavior, or dressing. How can they be expected to live in the world when their adults. His parents were a bit foolish to raising their boy in a such a way. I also believe the vegan life style stunted his growth. He's a fricken shrimp!!!

The world (esp. the jr. high world) is a place that if you can't hold up you're head (or you don't have the friends to help) you're shark bait and let me tell you, that shark ain't gonna show now mercy.

So after seeing this boy, I wonder, what are Dani's girl's like? Are they prepared for the real world. Do they know that the word "damn" is ok?! Do they know that jeans are all the rage and not loin cloths? Do they know that rebels are usually liked and preps are despised? Do they know that sometimes people don't care what you're favorite color is and want to talk about making-out skills? Now, I don't think Dani's kid are teenagers yet but they will. They will encounter others wether in the mall or at a camp. What are you going to do Dani? You can't hold their hands forever and imprison them. I am sure that Jesus would agree, you must let them to feel and think for themselves a little more because I get the sense that they don't. God gave humans free will so they could learn and decide for themselves and if they do it right, go to heaven. You can't force it upon them.

What would you do if one of you're children decided her heart lied with a woman in her later days????

I will be greatly interested to see responses on this matter.

Thanks
~Taylor

p.s. what would you rather talk about? favorite colors or who is better at making out?

Another Biblical Writing Thing... AND MORE!

"Six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to Him: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that divises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, a false witness who pours out lies, a man who stirs up dissesion amoung brothers." Proverbs 6:16

This is one of my favorites so far. It really tells you what not to do. If the Lord despises it, you probably shouldn't do it.

I don't know where to find it but we talked about it at my camp thing I went to so here it is. This is what I got, Jesus (i belive it was Jesus) would rather have the person causing someone else to sin to be thrown into the sea with an anchor around their neck then have an innocent and confused person being made to sin.

I just really wanted to share that, I think it's pretty cool. So... ya.

Oh... and God also thinks prositutes suck, so if that's you... well, I'd find a new job.

Sorry if this is all random but ya know, I just can't help myself.

Ha, ok I gotta tell ya this. So we were in the cabin and I was talking about the 7 things the lord hates, specifically the lying tongue (because it had been relating to events in our cabin) and so I was like "God thinks liars suck." I mispoke and accidently said: "God thinks liars suckle.." oops. I kinda went off from that but I don't think I should share that.....

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This involves events which I have just very recently read about. Trust the Lord with all your heart. I do. I trust in the Lord with all my heart. I will no longer be trusting in Dani or Deb. I look to them but I will not be relying on them.


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I'm going to go write my next post now.

"Animalistic" ??!?!!!?!?!??! WHAT THE-----------

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY EXCEPT YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT AND THAT I AM COMPLETELY INSULTED AND ROARING MAD SO JUST WATCH IT PEOPLE!!!! note: if you would like an explination please see Dani's latest post and the comments. Dani, I don't wanna be mean but that was over the top and really not cool what you said !!!

For Deb:

Dear Deb,

I apologize if I have somehow caused you any trouble between you and Dani... you guys obviously don't get along very well for reasons quite plain. I wanted to let you know, that I don't think you're a bad influence or evil or a blob of sin in Gods eyes which some people may think. I believe you're a very good role model and a very nice person. I love you're posts [ except for the ones with videos because i can't watch them!!! i really wanted to see the fireworks ya know :( ] and I enjoy talking with you. You haven't told me what to do except for: follow my heart aswell, as encouraged me that reading the bible is good! I hate watching people ganging up on you, IT'S NOT COOL!!! Nobody, even if they deserve it (which i'm not saying you do, because you totally don't) you should never pick on someone.

In conclusion, I still look up to you and I love being friends with you!!! You're really smart, funny, and you understand my point of view better than some. Oh! You also give fantastic advice.

THANK YOU DEB!!!!!!!!!!

LUV
~taylor

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For others:

I know you guys don't agree on the matters of homosexuality but it's just one of those things that will have to be let to sort themselves out. If they don't, well, they don't.

I would just like to share some little tid bits from my reading, recomended by Dani (thank you :)
from the Bible.

"Though it cost all you have, get understanding. Esteem her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honor you. She will set a garland of grace on your head and present you with a crown of splendor." Proverbs 4:7-9

Understanding comes in different forms. There is understanding of comments. For ex- do you understand multiplication??? 2x2 is 2, 2 times. That is one form, the other is a more important and compacionate form, can you understand how someone is feeling or understand that they need be left alone or need to be comforted? Sometimes you just need to TRY and understand!!! Things will be much better through understanding as says the bible.

"Six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to Him: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that divises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, a false witness who pours out lies, a man who stirs up dissesion amoung brothers." Proverbs 6:16

As far as I know Deb, nor any homosexual I know personally does that! People lie sometimes but I've never known Deb to lie. I don't lie, I just don't tell somethings. Esp. on the internet with personal stuff to avoid being kidnapped or something like that but I never in blog world. Not so far I haven't. Hmmm... now, I've seen some comments calling Deb a decieving wolf or something like that which would relate to: "a heart that divises wicked schemes" but I don't think Deb is a wolf that sits their rubbing her hands together going: "What is my next scheme to condemn the ones around me to the ways of Satan and send them to hell?!" No... that is not Deb and anyone who thinks that... well, that's just wierd. Deb hasn't killed anyone either of inncocent blood or guilty blood for that matter nor has she stirred up dissession amoung brothers, which I understand to mean going and ruining peoples lives by saying: Jimmy said such and such and he never wants to talk to you. Then going to Jimmy and saying: Billy hates you and never wants to talk to you. Am I right? Ok, so no one is doing that (you can't really do it in the blogging world.)

I read, copied and typed up what I got from the Bible. I did just what you older bloggers do to support your facts. Don't put a spin on it. Just listen ok? A listener is much greater appriciated than an arguer. It's ok if you believe that Deb is living what goes against the bible but she doesn't and you'll just have to UNDERSTAND how she feels and she doesn't (don't mean to put words in you're mouth deb) want to be treated disrespectfully because of it!

So, that's that. Just try and understand and things will flow better. If you absoloutly cannot find it to understand (sometimes it can be hard, i know) just let it go. God will give Deb a sign if somethings wrong don't you think? Yeah. So, let God do what God does and let's all take a deep breath please!!!

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Thank you for reading and I would like to say I appriciate you all, just the way you are!!!

LUV
~Taylor

p.s. xoxoxo

Chop It Down!!!

Watching the fireworks was amazing. They were so beautiful besides the big fat ugly tree in the way. Luckily they were pretty high fireworks so I could see most of them from untop my roof. :) I liked the finale (fin-al-ee) best because it had a giant version of one of my favorite type of fireworks. They're like fountains, they explode normal but then the sparks fall down instead of out. They're usually gold. I LOVE GOLD FIREWORKS!!!

How was everyone elses fourth? I hope you had a good time. What's the next holiday??? I mean, like a big one. Not a little one.

Must go begin my new post and do other things. HAPPY FOURTH (even though it's over)

Astroid Worries Me-- Will This Be My Last Post

Today, while on the way home I heard on a radio show (he was reading from the paper) how an astroid is hurteling past earth. Here is an article I found on it, please read:

Asteroid to make close encounter with Earth
JOHN VON RADOWITZ

AN ASTEROID up to half a mile wide was due to have brushed past the Earth early today, approaching almost as close as the Moon.
In astronomical terms, that counts as a near miss, but scientists who had been tracking the path of asteroid 2004 XP14 were not worried as it approached at about ten miles per second.
Nevertheless, the body has been classified as a potentially hazardous asteroid (PHA) along with 782 known others.
The object, discovered in December 2004, is one of a class of "Apollo" asteroids, whose orbits cross that of the Earth. Initially there were concerns that the body might collide with Earth later this century.
However, further analysis has ruled this out - at least for the foreseeable future.
If XP14 did hit the Earth the effects would be devastating. "It would probably be big enough to wipe out a small country," said Dr David Asher, from the Armagh Observatory in Northern Ireland.
"At least we knew about this asteroid. We should be more worried about the unknown ones.
"There are quite a lot of them flying around out there in space that have still to be discovered."
Scientists hope to gather valuable information about the asteroid by bouncing radar signals off it from the 230ft diameter Goldstone dish in California's Mojave desert.
The asteroid was expected to make its closest approach to Earth at 5:25am today.
At that moment it should have been 268,624 miles away, or almost the Moon's average distance from Earth.


As you can tell from the context it has not yet passed Earth. What if it does hit earth?! The Earth could shatter, or maybe a small country will be blown to smithereans!!! Oh, I seriously do not need this, I already have so many things to be worried by, I don't want to think that I may be killed by an asteroid. Will tomarrow be the epocolips. Ya know, it's funny because I was talking about this in the post before (the post below) but it's scary! Well, I hope scientists are right and Earth won't be ended. I am sure you've heard that the shuttle has been delayed but can you imagine if they went up and the next day, as they're floating up in space, the earth explodes! They wouldn't be able to do anything and they'd have no where to land and live. It's just plain crazy. That of course will not happen because due to the weather in Florida the shuttle was delayed.

My mom thinks that if the asteroid was going to hit Earth we would have the technology to destroy it before impact. What do you think? Ohhhhh I just hope those scientists are right. I just hate space. Sure, it's pretty but it's SPACE... think of the other definition of "space", that's what Space is only an actual place! *shivers* I don't like it. I would NEVER be an austronaut. I am more interested in Earth itself, especially the water portion of it.

I am going to go eat, I'm pretty hungry after the trip. *yawn* Much love to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Tay tay

p.s. I hate space...

Dying So Soon---

I remember and have seen how in the bible humans as well as other creatures lived to the incredible ages of like 700 years old! (correct me if I am wrong) Today, I suppose the avrage old is about 80 though in places (esp. China I've been told) have people who live to the ages of 100 and up! But why are we dying so soon? Well, I would suppose we've brought it upon ourselves through sins and just plain working too hard!

The bush men of africa only have to work like 3 hours or so a day for a healthy survival. They just go hunting and work on clothing, food, and other neccesities. In common society of the U.S. (atleast what I know of it) people work about 10 hours a day with a full time job. It's crazy!!! Sometimes people working that much (of course for cash, as opposed to food that bush men gather) don't even get by well and have to pick up two jobs! Purposterous. (rachel, how do you spell that? per-post-er-ous) Perposterous! Well, you know what I mean.

The work that most of us do nowadays is in some way poluting the world. Yes, Deb even you're writing eventually in some way is poluting the world. You're book for example I am guessing is made of paper, not stone and paper comes from trees and the less trees the less oxygen provided and more room for gases and icky stuff to fill the planet. That icky stuff comes from factories used to make you're paper for the book. Unless it just so happens that you're book is being made from the fine and home-made chinese/japanese (i can't remember which) paper. They use special wooden materials and water. Don't think I am taking a stab, I am just making my point that humans have put themself in such a position every bity action seems to screw something up! Except for bushmen who take only what they need when they need it. Unfourntunatly, they aren't chrisitans... I don't think which isn't so good as far as afterlife really goes.

Anyway, all this "icky stuff" and gases isn't good for our bodies and in some cases leads to problems for the body. Lungs and such.

Now, I've just thought up another interesting point. If we lived to ages so high the world would be overpopulated wouldn't it? Hmm... well, let's think of how this could be solved. No, not move everyone to the moon. Not that is really matters because the earth, esp. the west coast of the U.S. is doomed. According to what I learned in school the West Coast is over due for a giant earth quake, aswell as (according to my friend who is a year up from me but also studied natural disasters in the future) a meteor or astroid is due to strike the planet. What else? Oh, everything is melting in Alaska or something and a giant tidal wave is going to start up and drown us all.

It'll probably be the epocolips. Oh God help us. I mean, they're all over due and will most likely (if these scientist are right) hit earth at the same time with what terrible luck we seem to have down here.

Must be going now, I am heading home and I wanna get this post published. Much love to all and remember recycle!!!

LOVE
~tay

p.s. WILL POST LATER

The Bible For Dummies?

I have recieved comments and advice that I should read: "The Life Application Bible- New Living Translation." I believe this is a good idea and I would like to thank Bunny, aka MQM, Deb, and Dani for their bible technique suggestions. Dani didn't suggest this bible but has got me off on a good start with Proverbs. Unfourtunatly, I found that I had not brought my bible with me on this trip but I am returning home today!

My mother needs to take me shopping for camp anyway so why not ask her to get me this Life Application Bible?! Can you find it at a normal book store though? I don't want to have to go into some wierd and rare, little hard-to-find place. Just an avrage book store.

Ya know, I was reading the first part of the bible, (maybe half a year ago) where all the people are spreading and it was sooooo boring. Do you know which part I am talking about? For ex- Fred and Mary then had Bill, Bob, and Joe. Marcus and Eliza had Anne-Lois and Bertha who became wifes to Bill and Joe. Bill and Anne-Lois had Urcle who died at age 4.

Now, I am not quoting but this is what is was like! I just skipped it finally because it was sooooo boring. The sad part is I bet there are people out there who read it like 5 times to make sure they understand and then they go memorize it! Just scary, plain scary! Can you imagine being one of those writers sitting their having to write that all out? I mean it lasted like 3 pages I think.

Well, please let me know about the regular bookstore thing so I can hop to the learning! I'm really wanting to start this bible, I NEED a greater connection with God and I believe that and blogging and praying is a good start.... but I will NOT (I REPEAT) WILL NOT GO TO CHURCH!!!!!!!!!

*shivers* they're wierd....

Must be going, I have another post to start :)

Twas A Pear! & More

Twas A Pear!

Now, I read Dani's blog quite a bit and noticed she doesn't really care much for the public schools due to there lack of--- *trying to think of word* FAITH! Yes, lack of faith. Many readers have been surprised that some of the stuff I am writing about in the matters of God and the bible I learned at school. Pretty cool huh?

In our social studies class we learned a LOT of creation myths including the christian one and another version... it involved our God but it was different. If you ever take the time to look into creation myths, avoid the Chinese one, it's sooooooooooo gross! Honestly, they make the whole world out to be made of--- well, I'll let you find out for your self, but I'm warning ya!

In english or language arts, (different names, same basic class) we studied and anyilized myths aswell as the Garden of Edan story. This brings me to my quite interesting rant on how everyone is being told the wrong thing, it twas a pear, not an apple!

The Garden of Edan was home to the first humans, Adam and Eve. From Adam's rib came Eve, created to be helper to man. The Garden of Edan was also home to the trees: the tree of life, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil (was there one more? i can't remember.) Some creatures also lived in the garden, one of them was the serpant, who some believe to be the first form of Satan aswell as temptation. The tree of knowledge of good and evil was forbidden to Adam and Eve by the words of God. But foolish Eve was tricked by the serpant into believing that the tree would make them as powerful as their Father. Eve convinced Adam to eat from the tree as she did and that is when they saw themselves and naked and evil. The fruit claimed to have brought this knowledge and shame upon them is supposedly an apple. Wrongo. Twas a pear that Adam and Eve ate.

Now you're thinking, Taylor, I was impressed at first with this school but they have taught you wrong! My teacher actually happens to be quite clever and told us the tale. In medievil times (i think) there was a poet who wrote a poem (duh, poet, poem it all makes sense) about Adam and Eve. Unfourtunatly I have the nor the name or title of this poem but if I did I would surely display it. The poem told how the couple ate the apple. People took so well to this idea and the lovely poem that through time the pear of knowledge became the apple of knowledge.

Perhaps the next time I see her I will ask the title of the poem or name of the author but until them I am plainly stumped. Google doesn't help much either.

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Did God Plan for Knowledge?

The tree and the serpant were placed in the garden by God. Of course, who else? He created everything! Now, God I don't believe makes mistakes? Am I right? His son is perfect (who is a form of him) so it would make sense he can't. So God must have known that Adam and Eve were going to do this right? Yes, and my evidence? If God hated how things turned out he would have wiped everyone out on the spot and started over again with beings lacking free will.

Maybe God believed to highly in Adam and Eve and thought it below them to commit this everlasting sin. No, I still stick with my first opinion that it was planned. He plans everything, He plans our life and our death. He commands us and he blesses us. It's all in His hands and we cannot do jack about it, and shouldn't try. Here is a quote from Bruce Almighty: "God is a mean kid on an ant hill with a magnifying glass, he could fix my whole life in one second but he'd rather burn my feelers off and watch me SQUIRM!"- Bruce. Honestly, who thinks that? God is the most loving.... being? Well, he's not being but most loving..LOVER! in the whole entire universe! Those who disagree speak now or forever hold your peace...too late.

God loves all and plans everything. He gives you a choice and always is sending help you're way. For those who do not know or want to be christian, God (i believe) gives them a chance.

One time at camp (many years ago) we were doing bible study or something and I asked: what about people stranded on and island never knowing there was God and they couldn't accept God into their heart because they didn't know he exsisted. What would happen to them? Would they burn in Hell?

The answer was delayed but I am pretty sure she said, God would find a way. But I kept persisting, would they burn in hell if they didn't know who he was and couldn't be saved?

It's a sad subject isn't it? Thinking there may be people out there who don't want to and never will be saved. I am sorry to go a bit off topic from my "did God plan for knowledge" thing but you can see how I sprout of from there. I want to do good for people but nobody likes others opinions pressed on them so if you meet a person like that somewhere in the african jungle what the heck are you gonna do? I would probably think to myself: Well, God wants me here right? Soooo... I should do what I can!

What would you do in a situation such as this? Hm? Please think about it and let me know.


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Possibilites

So far I have gathered several ideas on my future and hopefully more God-involved lifestyle. I, as you have heard me (well, read me) state before, I shall read the bible. First, I shall start with proverbs as prescribed by Dani. I will also begin a prayer journal and see how it goes. Also I picked up the meditation idea from one of Debs comments and I'm thinking that sounds pretty good. It's good for you're body, mind and soul! Luckily I have mornings to my own so this should prove easy. These are the many possibilities so fascinating and interesting and I can't wait to try them and suddenly I've hit a brick wall. Church, please don't anyone reccomend it because I just can't do it! They are stuffy, unfriendly, and opinionated! I don't like them. No, I can do the camps, and I love singing our little prayer songs (i love christian camp so much, really) but I think church is just sooooooooo... annoying! I've been to a couple and they're nice and everything but I think a christian boarding school would be more interesting. You can't go there just to pray without being on schedule and they often smell wierd, the churches I mean (not boarding schools... not that I've been to one.) Churches at one time I imagine to have been grand and full of calmness. Now they just suck. I see movies and old elegant chapals or whatever, so much cooler than now. Maybe I should go to italy or france. Or not... I don't know but the point is don't anyone dare to recomend church, I WON'T DO IT AND YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!!!!!!! *shivers* I don't like them... not one bit. I'm sorry to go on and on but I just sense it'll come up sooner or later and I won't have it.

Well, now that we're passed that I'm going to get to work on my God work-out soon :) I think I need some physical work out too, anyone have a bowflex around? lol.

Much love to all, and sorry about the ranting on about churches, they just drive me up the wall! Hope you'll forgive me,
LOVE
~TAY TAY


p.s. HAVE A HAPPY DAY!

The Bible, Guide Book or Rule Book???

I believed I talked about this in my last post. I think it makes a pretty good topic too. Now I know I am going to be recieving comments on this as it would seem something my christian comrads would respond to. Now, if you read my last post I stated how I believe that the Bible is a "guide book" and not a rule book. Why do I say this? Because if it were a rule book the human race followed our society's would be perfect. Rules are not supposed to be broken. If it were a rule book humans who broke those rules and didn't repent for every single little one (include eating shell fish) would be sent straight to hell. I don't believe this is occurring. The bible has important lessons and a great many metaphors. It has instructions and tips not HOW THINGS MUST BE DONE! Even Dani said the Bible can be thought of as-

"BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH"

Let's examine some vocab in this little quote. Basic. Now you're not dummies, nor am I but I would none the less like to tell you a synonym/definintion for basic.

Basic: of or relating to the simplest facts or theories of a subject.

Bible of course tells facts. These are facts of history and what happened in the past. They are not absolutely simple but the instruction it gives are which is our next term I wish to address.

Instructions: a statement of what to do that must be obeyed by those concerned.

Now, this makes little sense. In a recipe we have instructions but don't necessarily have to follow them. But on the matter of building? Yes, you should follow those instructions for you're 5 year old's swing set as to be sure it wouldn't break. Two clashing theories, what to do, what to do.

So far we have, Basic Instructions, or simple statements that must be obeyed. So is the bible the recipe type or the building type of instructions? Hm.. well, I see it as a recipe. Am I not permitted to touch a friend or sit on a pals bed during her . ? ( notice i hate the term and prefer the symbol... blech... :( ) I am also not permitted to eat shellfish? No! This is not true. This is just what the people who wrote this believed. Did go honestly say: "Thou shall not feast upon the shellfish or sit upon the bed of a woman having her . " I most certainly doubt it. God creates things to tempt us true but really, shellfish?! Is that because they are (possibly) and afridisciac? (a-fri-dee-she-ac, you get what i'm trying to say right?) Anyway I just find it hard to believe. And what about sundays? Holy day! Humans have totally thrashed it. I don't know where to look in the bible but I'd quote it if I did. I know it speaks of how not to kill or do other sins. I can't remember off the top of my head but you see my point. That is most certainly a rule because God himself said it. There is a different between what the bible says in the bible and what God says in the bible.

Alright, so back to the vocab. "before leaving earth." Well, that's pretty self explanitory. We got it all now. So the bible is a recipe to follow, and learn from to make the most out of you're gift of life before ascending to the heavens. I think I captured it quite well. In the times of the bible, (a looooooooooong time ago) they obviously did not have what our modern societies have today. They did not really have the enormous churches and so much human unison. Yes, I realize much of the world will have nothing to do with one another but there are still a great many christians who gather together. We also live relatively freely. We can go worshipping Jesus and following him without being crucified.

The bible is a recipe, a guide book, not a rule book. Yes, it has rules in it, those rules stated by the holy lord himself. Guide book. From his mouth God never spoke the words that those of different sexuality displayed by Adam and Eve shall be sent into the firey pits of hell. You don't see thunderbolts striking those who have supposedly sinned through their life style of choosing to be affecinate towards the same sex.

In school (yeah, it's suprising for public school) we examined the creation of Adam and Eve and what happened to them. We examined every little aspect of the story. We read how it said (i don't have it right infront of me so forgive me if this isn't word for word) "I shall create God in our image." I remember how we noticed in certain parts God spoke as "I" and God spoke as "us" or in group form. This suggests either: angels, God is neither man nor female yet both, or Jesus was with him. If the 2nd (God being nor man nor female yet both) is correct then what is wrong with loving the same gender? No, you cannot reproduce but some men and women can't due to medical problems. Does that mean they aren't serving God all the same. A child of God who worships God shall be saved from the fire. They must do their best to serve him and love him for they will be treated well in the heavens. We christian "homosexuals" (i really hate that term... I'm going to come up with somethig new one day) are not doing as some and trashing the name of God. We aren't worshiping the serpant and the devil. We aren't standing looking up to the sky screaming: "We aren't falling Adam and Eve and you can't do jack!!!" No, we're loving a human. A companion.

I finish with my strong and unchanged decision, the bible is a guide book, and I do not sin. I love. I am going to continue trying to pick up that bible and see how things go. I will be interested on reading the comments about this post, oh dear, it is quite a long one. A very well written one I believe too.

I LOVE GOD!!!
~Taylor

The Life Grade- percents everywhere!!!

This is part of a comment I posted on Dani's blog:

"With a lot of things in life I relate them to percentages and grades.

For ex-
A~ 90%-10%
B~ 89%-80%
C~ 79%-70%
F- 69% or below
SUPER F- 0% (of course I made that up)"

It's true, totally true, many parts of my life and turn to percents and grades. This is a habit that started when I began junior high. It's like little TINY sections of a test. The test would be life. Of course obvious examples of where I do this percentage thing is games. Other grades I give myself for things like stress and other feelings. Oh!And art work. Lately I've been doing some drawings (I think they are pretty good) that I've been considering bringing on the blog. I'm just worried about how you (readers) will respond and I don't want them stolen. I have a copy right symbol on all of them but it's tiny. Well, I am sure I an figure something out.

ANYWAY, percentages in life is something I enjoy living by. It also helps me improve something as well as humor myself. Sometimes I'll kind of round up numbers a bit but not that much. I am guilty of a couple times doing this in the school year on several tests and rounding up as a matter of fairness or taking out parts that were totally not nice and seeing how I did after that. This didn't matter really to the grade books but it cheered me up a bit. The rounding up thing didn't work very well though when I recieved a devastating grade on a bio test I studied SUPER hard for. Luckily I passed though. Sorry, having bit of a trouble staying on track but it just proves my point on how far out this grade/percentage thing extends.

I wonder what my overall life grade will be? THE WORLD WILL NEVER KNOW!!! Only God.... maybe not even him, being the fact that he doesn't go around grading. Grading and judging are two completely different things I would like to point out.

Now, if you excuse me, I have a meeting with a bubble bath and some rubber ducks. :)

random note: I am listening to the radio kinda and this guy is signing about how he loves Nascar... soooo wierd.



Nice good post, I'd give it a B+. LOL.
SEE YA SOON~
taylor


p.s. Have a happy day!!! oh!!! I'm late for my bubble bath. g2g. bye!

THE BLOGGER FILES: TOP SECRET

WOW! Ok, so the blogging is really heating up. Through comments and posts many words are being exchanged. The fires are starting up leading to another important climax to the issues discussed between Dani, Deb, and myself (and others too).


BLOGGERS PROFILES:

name- Dani
age- adult
blog- Generation X-pose
LINK- http://worstgenerationseed.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality goes against the bible and words of God
other- likes eminem
faith- Christian

name- Deb
age- adult
blog- Let Me Go On and On!
LINK- http://dtrant.blogspot.com/
opinion- homosexuality does not go against the bible and words of god
other- recently injured neck
faith-Christian

name- Taylor
age- teen
blog- Soaring Heart
opinon- mostly agree with ~Deb
other- knows that she is bi- and in love with her BFF.
ability to hear god- not very good
faith- Christian

(if i got anything wrong please correct me so i can change you're profile)

The Issue: gay, bi-, lezbian, straight (what is right and what is wrong?)

The Answer: unknown yet

Manager and Administrator: God

THIS CONCLUDES THE BLOGGER FILES


So, you've read the blogger files? I am sure you also read above it said top secret??? *tisk tisk* You little rule breaker! (JK)

The Blogger Files I created just to get some facts straight and make it a big easier to acess the blogs.


Alright, so I noticed Dani and Deb kinda going at it on Dani's last post. Things were really burning (esp. since Deb brought hot wings.) Forgive me, it was just quite funny. Reminded me of a little RP thingy. ANYWAY.... the issue as you read in the blogger files is concerning. I mean, sure there is the bible and with all it's lessons and teachings, some parts are just unclear. What about history? I brought the question up once with a camp concerler (this is christian camp) on where were the dinos? Did Noah bring them on the ark? She said yes. I am like: "WHAT?" You see, it's just almost impossible to answer. The bible is in many aspects a mystery. It avoids some of the most curious questions. You know why? Well, I believe it's because, like an adult, teacher, or friend it wants you to get the answer. God gave us free will right? With free will comes the ability to learn along side many other characteristics. He wants us to figure it out for our own and the bible isn't a rule book. Just a tool with good advice and thoughts. Not how to live. How to live you, yourself must learn how to do. You may agree... you may disagree but I think I am right.

Must be going now. So much to do and (of course) so little time. I will return later to check on you all. Remember- if anything in the BLOGGER FILES is wrong, correct me.

LUVS
~taylor










note: sorry deb about the mixed up links earlier, have a good day :)

The Forecast and Am I Pursuaded

Today is just gross hot. I hate it. I am sitting her typing away and sweating horribly. I hate sweat. It's soooooooo disgusting. GET IT OFF ME!!! I hope it's better tomarrow :(

Ok, first part of headlines has been adressed. Part 2: "Am I pursuaded?" If you check previous comments in the Deb/Dani disscussions I loathed Dani and highly admired (and still do, even more actually!!!) Deb. Deb was someone who I could relate to more and Dani seemed like some nutcase out to hurt everyones feelings to suit her supposed way of living. Well, since then I've gotten a new screen name, attitude and mind (and open one.)
Dani and I have now become friends even though some of her sarcastic words towards Deb bug me a bit she's actually pretty nice. About me? She's just concerned. So why not listen? I did listen and though I am not yet pursuaded I can see things from her point of view. Her latest post.... oh darn. I forgot the title and I don't know how to do those linky things, but anyway, she made it for me and other readers as well. I had asked her where the heck it said in the bible not to be bi. Her post kindly explained to what she believes (and I kinda/sorta believe.) The only little thing that bugged me about her post was that being bi- is a greater sin than others. SIN IS SIN (if it is sin, which I am not really sure it is. i don't THINK it is... i don't know it isn't though.) God doesn't say: "Hey, murder is a really really bad sin. But lying isn't that bad." No. I imagine Him being more like: "Jane has sinned. As has Tommy. Their sister Lucy though, has not sinned." Of course, that's just my personal thought and what many other believe as well.
No, Dani, you have not yet pursuaded me into agreeing with you completlely but you have pursuaded me to be your friend :) As well as convinced me I need to look at things in more ways, it helps!!!

random question that is super baffeling: When were dinosuars??? Why did God make them? Were they outside the garden?


love ya deb + dani,

~tay

Blogging Rampage

I really must slow down blogging but I can't help it. I am soooo into blogging right now. It's a side effect of those gummie frogs I bet. They are delicious! Umm. Could you excuse me for a moment?

*leaves* *grabs gummie frog* *returns*

currently chewing on gummie frog: YUM! Sooo good :)

Ok, so as I was saying... I believe this whole blogging constantly could be a side effect of the frogs.

This is... what my third, fourth post today? I mean before it was like one a day if at all (reffering to past blogs) but now, whoo! BLOG BLOG BLOG! It's a good stress reliever as well as boredom solution. I could type probably for hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours. WOW! Falling into a transe there. Sorry, but now you see my point.

Hopefully I will be able to find something. Well I have, reading but ya know. I'm hoping for something more. It's like if I'm not blogging I'm reading and visaversa................ i don't think that's how ya spell it :(

I want to make a bit more use of this perfectly good post and I've decided to conserve space and type my other thing up here. It's like saving trees only....... I'm saving interent. Ya right. Anyway, here's some questions I've been brainstorming for Deb and Dani and others.

1. Is the devil out to get us???

my opinion: no, only to tempt us

2. Who would be worse: someone who comits the crime or someone who allows a crime to be comit?

my opinion: the person who stands by and lets it occur if there is such a person in the certain situation

3. Are the bible peoples right in saying you shouldn't sit on the bed of- or touch someone who's........ must I say it??? COME ON! You know what I mean. Some lady who is: .

my opinion: ummm... no! it is crazy! i think whoever wrote that (oh i hope it wasn't God) was a complete nut! talk about obsessive compulsive much?

4. Why didn't God just make one Adam who could reproduce through splitting? (ya know like little cell thingys)

my opinion: IDK!!! please don't answer with: because it was to be. give me an OPINION.

5. What is the most evil object in the world?

my opinion: weapon or upside down, devil-worshipping cross thingy.... EVIL!

6. Do you believe anything on the matter of 6-6-6?

my opinion: no! i mean come'on. he (the devil) is just a jelous angel and that's his b-day (i think.) if he really wanted to burn all humanity don't you think he'd do it on the spot... not that he could.

7. Any thoughts on anime? (I just know some parents who think it's evil)

my opinion: yep. that and fluffy bunnies. beware!!!!



That's all I got for now. Any questions for me? Well, I guess I'll see in the comments :)

have a SPLENDIFEROUS day

~taylor

p.s. I am just in too good of a mood... what is wrong with me? lol. :)

A mi me encanta Deb y Dani!

For those of you who speak spanish you'd know that the post title is: I love Deb and Dani!!! As you know I really really did not care in the least bit for Dani before but her and I have become friends! I honestly love both of those chicks and they're great people. Yes, they are completely different, and yes, I lean towards one more than the other but I believe they are both great!
This post is for you, thanking you both for you're kindness and advice and helping me become an active blogger. Though I have to tell you... I am becoming a computer junkie because of you guys!!! lol. No not really, because I am reading books a bit. Just moments ago I happened to return from a nice little private session with one of my new favs: Wicked. I sat on the steps of my deck frying in the lovely summer heat. Hmm... wonder if I am any tanner?
Those names who I haven't mentioned, I appriciate your comments too :) Also I would like to thank those of you who know how to treat a teen and I give you the: knows-how-to-treat-a-teen award. lol. I very much appriciate and recognize my being treated more than some dumb, dramatic kid... which, trust me, I can be :(

Time to go!

Have a happy day
~Tay

You know, I'm loving this new signiture thing.

p.s. LOVING THE COMMENTS!!! :)

Childhood?

Suprisingly nothing significant ever happened there. I just was a good kid at home that played outside and assumed (being young) that I may have the ability to talk to animals. I was one of those cool chicks who could imitate sounds of just about any darn animal you could think of.... I had trouble with the fish and zebra though but an expert in lions, cats, and dogs. Some birds too.
Not exactly proud of it but it was a habit and I was much younger.
School? Well, I'll start at key memories I have from the begginning. Me and friends playing pochohauntus and tag. Then in a different school I moved up to bigger games that fit the era of poke'mon and more tag along with hide-and-go-seek. In class we made cool little rubber thingys by melting those beads. I got frusterated on occasion cause they kept spilling. I had a best friend who kinda took me for granted (idk how to spell it) and once convinced me she had gone blind and toted me around like a fool. She and I moved away and then went to seperate schools but she was my first big best friend prob.
Later years I hung out more with girls but I associated with guys well. I prefered their company because most girls could be snobby. Me and my friends (the girl ones) played games that we were hamsters and would hide under the playground. They were my dearest friends until they invited the evil twins to join us and they eventually turned against me. Later on in life we became friends again :) Junior high? Well, that's current state and I met the most amazing friends. It was the best school (though unorganized) and I love it!!!! Everyone there is nice. And I couldn't have a better best friend: she doesn't take me for granted, is never mean, loves hanging out, and is funny. Oh! She can also read me like a book and doesn't give up trying to cheer me up when I'm down.

Pretty good I say....

For summer every year I go to a christian camp (usually a horse one) and I've done it since I was young. I learn really cool things and have a blast. I try to go to church but the one I attended was a long way away and I only went with a friend so I'm kinda on my own. I don't like alota churches, they are stuffy and treat kids and teens not-so-nicely.


I consider my life far from tragedy and I hope you agree :)

I must go, I don't wanna hang around the computer too long!

Thanks Dani. Thank you all! And Good DAY!

have a happy day
~love tay


HEY THAT RYMES..... tehe.

SUUUUUMMMMEEERR- todays forecast

Wow, today is like the most fabulous day to go to a lake. If only I could magically conjur up a lake in my yard......... ABRA CADABRA!!! LAKE, APPEAR! No such luck. Maybe I should try for a smaller thing? Maybe a........... POOL! ABRA CADABRA POOL! Ya know, I'm starting to get the impression that I am not magic. LOL. Maybe I should just... go take a cold bath??? Nah, it's no where near the same effect as a nice swim. Oh well, maybe something will come up and one of my buds will call me.

"My [Friend] Shot Me Down"

Thank you friends for coming again... if you're not here well than I guess I'm just talking to myself. Ok, I wish to begin explaining the title of this post to you. As I am sure you know, there is a song sang by Cher, also the Kill Bill theme song. It goes like this: "I was 5 and he was 6, we ride on horses made of sticks. He was black and I was white. He would always win the fight, BANG BANG! He shot me down. BANG BANG! I hit the ground. BANG BANG, that awful sound. BANG BANG! My baby shot me down...." Ok, obviously the difference between song and title. Title is shorter (no duh) and baby has been replaced with friend. A person, I was starting to grow closer to, inch by inch, shot me down a bit. Dani, you're comments about a broken house hold hurt but I know you only want the best so I am gonna get up. Pluck those bullets out and shake your hand. We're different you and I, and you're much stronger (reffering a bit to the song) in how you.... *thinking of how to put this again* throw you're ideas out there. But I'm still always gonna keep trying to maintain peace.
Don't refer to the rest of the song please cause I don't know it. Let's just keep to that one little piece in case theres any other parts that wind up making me sound evil. Not good. Yes, you're right in saying that the "truth" hurts (supposing you're opinion is correct) but that's not whats bugging me. The think about guessing that my home is broken. My home is not! Oh... must check myself. I really want us to get along. And I know you said it with the thought that you may be wrong at guessing. I just... I don't know. I't really made my head hot for a second there. So I come forward again and shake you're hand, wiping the comment from my head. Thank you again Dani and I hope to talk to you soon!

HAVE A HAPPY DAY EVERYONE :)

On a More Cheerful Note!

Hey people, I've decided to change the topic. Let's move onto something that's hard to disagree on and I know you most definatly love: SUMMER IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, the weather is nice, the beach is open and there are so many fabulous things to do! I've spent some parts of my summer hanging with my best buds, reading, blogging and ............. *thinking of other things* oh! And playing catch, walking, exploring, chatting. So many different fun things! Really. Let's stop arguing for a minute and find what's in common in us. I apologize for the people on the opposite side of the globe in winter. I can't do much for you except say: It'll be summer soon!!!
I gotta go but I'll be blogging soon again :)

Maybe A Bit More Love?

In history how many different events can you think of that people protested at? Ok, that's a start. Now think how many of those were violent protests and how many more people were hurt at those? Got it? Moving on: How many of the events protested at violently got what they wanted? The more violent usually gets you what you want but so many more are hurt am I right? Yes I am aware that a more peaceful approach takes longer but if people attempted talking out their issues and being a bit more polite on matters upon which they were protesting we'd have quite a many less problems around the world am I right?! I believe so.
Upon the discussions in my dear friend Deb's blog as well and the recently aquainted (sp) Dani who I found I can get along with better through peaceful words. Deb and Dani started out a bit more "violently" at first but then got to sit down and do a blog-guest thing. This I was actually quite surprised at. Really I mean, two people who absoloutly positively disagree with one another becoming friends. At the time I was a bit blind because of my loathing passion, one might say, for Dani because at the time I found her to be rude and selfish. Until recently I was always infuriated at what she said but overcame that and decided to call a peaceful truce.
Dani called me and or my situation "an absoloute tragedy" which no one can appriciate but I decided instead of snapping back at her like my imidate impulse I commented politely. Not bad eh?
So in the end the point I want to get across is try a peaceful manner, it may take longer, but a lot less hurting can be done ;)


HAVE A HAPPY DAY


p.s. thank you Dani and Deb

UPDATE ON NATASHA & WHY I WORRY



Ok, so I got a hold of "Natasha" as I named her in my previous posts and explained the situation starting with the devil-worshiping band HIM that she listens to. She rebuttled (i don't know if that's the right word or spelling) in that I hadn't even listened to one song except for "Rip the Wings Off a Butterfly." VIOLENT MUCH?! I don't care if it's a good song... I don't have to hear their other songs. You just look at the name and look at the little symbol! It's supposed to be a "heart gram" but it's an upside-down star tweaked a bit. Add it all up and it means "I LOVE HIM." HIM would be the devil. The music thing was ok for a while but than her father specifacally said: "You can listen to the music but you're not getting any clothing and stuff." SHE DID!!! She went behind his back. I hope he finds out!
The next issue I adressed was that she's depressy all the time and she doesn't need to be. There's no purpose to it and that it's wrong! She said "that's how I always am." I asked her why and she didn't exactly answer. She is doing it because she wants her "IMAGE." She wants a tough, goth, mean image that she thinks makes her look cool. BUT IT DOESN'T! She wears ugly trashy looking clothes and I am starting to get sick of it. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! She complains she's fat (which she is not) and wears those clothes. I just want her to shut up and be the old Natasha. I hate the new one!
The new Natasha also is mean to a lot of her friends in being disrespectful and condesending. I've watched it many many times. It's WRONG! She even does it to me, but I get by easier cause we're pretty close. Next time I see her face to face I am gonna sit her down and give her this lecture again. I will! And I will have evidence that HIM is a devil-worshipping band. SO HA!!!
I also confronted her with the whole thing about saying she was no longer christian and she's like: "I was joking. No, I still am christian." HA! She was joking! Well, she sure didn't sound like it at the time and ya know what, that's not a funny joke! Do you think that's funny? No? I sure don't. It is just spinning out of control and I don't want to see her go down that way. Honestly, I hate being told how to be and act and I would never want to tell people how to be.
I am off to get my proof! GOOD BYE!


p.s. any suggestions?

Greetings. Welcome to another post of anylizing the problems in my little life. I am still worried about my pal and I can't get a hold of her. What to do what to do? Well, I have a thought. In this bored time of nothingness I shall write a story. It's a story I've been thinking about when I was on the beach looking at this broken bridge. I don't wanna work on it now exactly but I'll get around to it. Hey, I'll check in later kk? BYE!


p.s. have a happy day.

The Latest

Today was a very sad and heart-ripping/tear-jerking day as I was ripped apart from my friends. Moving day? No... the last day of school. Most kids look upon it as "WHOOT! SCHOOLS OUT!!! YAY!! FREEEEE!" but I personally enjoy school. There I can be with friends and the one I love. I looked at her doing my best not to burst out in tears as my bus pulled away from the curb and headed to it's desitination. We hugged tightly before I left but what I really wanted to do was to kiss her goodbye but I must respect her wish to not... she must have her first kiss with a gentelman. Now, you may think I am being ridiculous and I can always talk to her during the summer.... but what if her mom doesn't let her? And we never get the chance to talk on the phone. It's just all very saddening. Luckily due to the school board the summers are getting shorter and so it'll only be about two months... though I imagine it will seem quite long.
Luckily I snapped many photos of my friends and brought a big board to school and had all my pals sign it. When I get home I am going to hang it up on my wall and with some pictures and scrapbook the rest. I can't wait to be back with everyone. I've never had a better gang of friends. All their little notes on the board were so nice and my heart soared when I found that they really did think I was funny and nice. You see there are some people at shcool who treat me very poorly and say I am dumb and not funny. Also I can be mean and so I get worried. But my friends really do think I am nice and I was showered in great strong hugs. My spirits are so much higher. I guess you just need to look at the positive things more so than the negative. That's what I tell my friend, I'll just give her the name Natasha because I don't think she'd want me using her really name.... which would bring me to my next issue.
Natasha has been one of my best friends since... oh I dunno 4th or 5th grade. When we went to middle school we went to different schools and she has changed. Natasha and I are still friends and still hang out only with a couple differences.... a couple BIG differences. Natasha is a depressy, moody, and negative girl now... did I mention she cuts her arms? She also threeatens to run away and blames everything on herself. She says her mother doesn't let her do anything when actually she has it pretty good and is just being a brat. For example- she now wears trashy, baggy, black goth clothes. We were in this store and she wanted this really ugly goth black long skirt... very trashy and it cost $50!!!!!!! Her mother said no (thank god) and she threw a fit. The cutting thing is a serious concern though it isn't as bad as I thought cause it's only scratching. (whew) The WORST issue I believe is over the devil-worshipping band "HIM" and I asked "Natasha" and she said she's no longer christian. I don't think she's devil-worshipping but not far from it. What do I do??? I don't want to lose her friendship but I don't want her to be this way anymore. She was once a fun-loving and cheerful girl and now she is depressy and quite rude to her friends, even me (only not so bad). She tells them to shut up when they just want to comfort and be nice to her. It's sooooo stressful. I'm losing my friend fast and she's more and more making her own misery. WHAT TO DO?!?!? Life is hard but she's making it so much harder on herself and the HIM band and some of the friends she has aren't curing the problem and don't care. Ugh, I am so irritated because she is so selfish! *grrrrrrrrrr*

Sorry about that.... listen people I need to go for now but will be back soon.

DEB, I NEED ADVICE!!!

First and Key

Hello,

My name is Taylor. Welcome to my blog. This blog will be I believe my 3rd but I am using it under a different screen name for the fact that I don't want all my fans (aka friends) of my other blog to know about my bisexuality and the fact that I'm in love with my best friend. Since about, I dunno 4 months ago? Ya, I have fallen deeper and deeper in love with my dear buddie but don't get me wrong, we have a totally normal teenage bff relashionship although we have a small obsession with making up little stories about hitting her mother with a fly swatter. You're next question probably is does she love me back? No, she does not though she has a little crush she is busy in her own boy relashionships which I have come to accept.

Before I go any farther I want to say thank you to my dear friend and inspiration Deb. I hope you'll get to read this sometime :)

Today I was informed that my love and I may be torn apart by her mother who may be taking a job up in Oregon. Her mother isn't very lovely you see and does what she can to torment her daughter so we're planning to run away before it can happen or calling the police. You see (sorry I am not using names but I'd like to respect the fact that they probably don't want their names up here) her mother is abusive and it worries me a great deal. I mean it's not black eye, just usually a slap on the face, but still it's wrong and she mentally abuseses her by being a "fun sucker." The mom sucks the fun out of virtually everything! Well, no, that's wrong. See our theory is that she is Satan's ex-wife and was thrown out of hell, adopted her now daughter and cheers her up just to bring her down and feeds off her sorrow. Sad huh? But most likely true. Hmph. The point being is that my buddie needs out of that house!!! What to do?!?

I've come to discover through Deb that I need a stronger connection with God and until then I am getting advice from her. I was told once by a friend that the closer your with God the easier you here Him. Over the years I've drifted in and out of connction but it was really nothing too impressive. I want to hear Him. I just wish I could figure out how. I'm starting with reading the bible in hopes that it may lead me in the right direction. I wish I could go to church but it makes me quite uneasy for some reason and many Christians don't except my type of sexuality... not that I would tell them but I would just know that I was unwanted, a not-so-loverly feeling. Most of the lessons about the bible and stuff I learn at camps I go to. I started going to christian camps when I was young and my grandmothe sent me, now all my cousins go to a certain one but I have branched off and go to horse camp. It is there where I will be going soon for another exciting year. Last year I asked questions, took notes, and sang songs with feeling and this year ya know what? I plan to do just that only better. I am determined!!!!

I am very indeed sorry to depart and I apologize that this probably hasn't been the most interesting first post but I am working on becoming a more serious and honest blogger so I hope you'll give me a bit longer.

To my dearest inspiration and friend
~Deb

p.s. THANK YOU!!! :)

p.p.s. what should I do about my friend and her mom?!